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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

hey..hoy......hey..hooooo...heh...mm ok....woke up kinda late..my head is kinda heavy..but i actually get up before my sis did..becos im lazy to kemas katil..ouh god..lol..judge me!..krekrkkre..bgn je..was still in a daze..watch tv without my specs..cant even see..adoi......mm..den after that..feel uneasy..go n take my shower..den do the projects!!..the projects of the kueh..yea..i love u mama.heh..since chinese new yr..krismas is coming..kueh is on da making..lol..tak dpt keje..i find other alternative la eh..so my n my mom manage do 8 butters of almond london..3 tupperware..awww..im hepi..bwahaha.wat the fish sia sue..while doing kueh..we sit in the living room..watch a show..cerita tv satu..pasal the prince turn to a frog..legend dari org puteh beb..ehhe..the story is kinky tho..lol...hmm..den after buat kueh till 7 plus..my head is heavy..pening...wonder why..tink ate too much..so..i slept till 8.30pm....bangun je tgk tv..i feel like a useless kid..lol..tgk tv..den so on..raket call me up..i call her back..becos she got incoming free!!..lol..hell raket..but its ok..i dunt mind la..k now im here..heh..well..nvm..1.04am now..december two nine.orite..adious

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

i just got to noe.who he is.i just got to noe in a minute.
that was sick.
real sick.
my sis download this song...mellygoeslaw and ari lasso.
nice song-
let me put the lyrics here

Apa Artinya Cinta - Melly Gouslaw feat. Ari Lasso(OST Apa Artinya Cinta)
tiba-tiba kau ada
kemudian engkau hadir
laksana kerdil ku memeluk
lihat aku lebih dalam
di matamu ku melihat
ada cinta yg tersirat
iringi hati merebak
barangkali aku salahku terdiam
bukan bisu
tahu engkau besar malu
tutupi rasa gelisah
* biar saja waktu nanti
yg menikmati kisah ini
bersamamu aku senang
reff: belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
akulah yg pantas untuk kau cintai
di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta
arti cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku
siang malam hanya untuk pikirkan engkau
sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta
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lagu dari naif-benci untuk mencinta
terimalah NAif..yea..
ku cinta untuk membenci
membencimuuu
aku tak tau apa yg terjadi
antara aku dan kauuu
yg ku tau pasti
ku begitu mencintaimu..
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songs are songs.emotions that are left unexpressed.ya.let me let it go.wait up.
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............................................................i got to noe 27 december.....ending it.....
ya ok...no more.adious.sue..bye...its over!...
adious
12.20am 28 december

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terimalah satriodee-cinta mati
cinta datang dan pergi
saat kau sendiri atau tak sendiri
dan cinta juga terkadang
tak bisa dimengerti
tapi cinta sejati
yg ku persembahkan untukmu seorangdari dasar hati
dari relung jiwa yg lama terpendam untukmu
sepenuhnya aku takkan bisa berpaling darimu
karna cinta ini cinta matiku untukmu
bila kau sadari ku telah jatuh hati padamu
dalamnya rinduku
cinta datang dan pergi
saat kau sendiri atau tak sendiri
dan cinta juga terkadang
tak bisa dimengerti
sepenuhnya aku takkan bisa berpaling darimu
karna cinta ini cinta matiku untukmu
bila kau sadari ku telah jatuh hati padamu
dalamnya rinduku buat aku memikirkanmu
sepenuhnya aku takkan bisa berpaling
karena engkau adalah cinta matiku
.songs are song bebeh...........satriodeeeeeeee..........................
.................i cant seem to stop.................................
.........."sue,kau ok tak?"...
......."tak aku tak ok"..............
............"asal?"...........
..........."sebab......"..............
..............."apalah,bilang uh..."............
............."hari tak selalu indah".......
............"apa kau merepek setan??"............
..........."im telling you wat i feel"......
..........."merepek ar sueee".......
..........."well ok.."..................
............"kau gila eh?"..............
............"tak,aku bukanla makhlukmu...woooo"..........
........."apa kau??!!!oi"...........
........"betapa bodohnya aku percaya semua perkataanmu!!!"
...........kla..tu je ...bye......adious.now its 12.32...28 december still....
.............................................menunggu pagi............................

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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

uhm yeap..hie..on 20 december...i had a dream..it was sooo scary..i told raket yesterday..lol..she got scared to..but i simply cant fully explain my dream la..n i had dis dream twice..wat the fish..its like dis...me,raket n faizah was nicely dressed...mcm raket with her sporty outfit..me in my jeans n stuff..faizah also sama..den we were wearing shades...like so urbanise world la..i can see everyone booking in the hotel..n the hotel got that orange lighting...so urban la..den wen i go inside our room..even an opaque wall i can see thru..since the room ada two pintu..one is to go in n one is to go out door...tak sempat i ask raket not to open the door and only ask her not to go out..raket actuallyopen the door and there was a man like put u on a cursed...that man is in black with a gun..den wen we went out there is sooo many lanes..and in that situation point of time eh..anybody inside there will be dead..they noe they gonna be dead la but then to them like nuthing happen..and for example eh...u walk in tha lane in ur grp of frens..that behind u will be another grp..n that grp behind us is running to kill us..but then i was like,"y u guys are walking so slowww?"..becos org blakang nak bunuh kita korang leh jln slow ..aiyoo..so hard la..then same time mimpi bout in my house.mcm there is a family masuk rumah nak visit la..but all my family noe that the family nak suruh org lain attack our house..we noe that..but dey all relek..den its like the guy gonna hurt me..den go to my room uh..the back room i mean..then..he can jump like..,"boom"..aiyaa..i dunt tink theoratically can do...its verbal talk den can understand...urgh..its ok..

......yesterday 21december...go to my bibik house..at first dint wanna go but she always like make me to go ...well ya..den go to rumah kak nora....hmm ok..den i went to eat at siam restaurant..k.great plus sick day.

its all that for now.adious
11.14am.22december

suhaili @ Wednesday, December 21, 2005 | comment link here

Saturday, December 17, 2005

while i was sitting
in that busy road they say..
it seems ...
i know most of them
who used to grab a chance and say "hi"

as time pass without any mercy
as time pass without any warnings
dey tend not to care even without a minute
slowly disappear without a say

dey go with worldly thing
showing their so called ,"aww,its so cool."
get alive ouh my dear boo
diggin ur grave with only ur sinful fool.

..........my world.................hee..from sue.yep...adious
11.26pm.17 december.

suhaili @ Saturday, December 17, 2005 | comment link here

"Human maze" -----yeaps..thats the title..
outside i wait
u werent there but ure dead
told u many times that i wud be there
for me to bare..

so on it goes..

later dint i tell you that..
no matter how long it take
it will only take me a second to wake
or..
u dint dare to face the time
that stuck in a wall chime
are you aware of the surroundings getting over me??

soon i lose control..
not a single sole could behold
till now
you left me unanswered
with all that cover lover world
and now....
its..
"game over"

hmm..todae..woke up kinda late..as usual..holidays..wat do u expect form a normal teenager like me?or shall i say extraodinary teenager?geez...well read dis out,"u laugh at me becos im different,i laugh at you becos you all are the same".bwahahahahahaha.feel better now?yea..i gez so..so actually pass few days..been again ironing clothes..to get some money in my pocket..so today i iron my sis clothes..charge her 0.50 per shirt..lol...i got 6 bucks today..not that much compared to my mom's clothes..but nvm..she's a student anyway..lol...ate lot of food..im going crazy..rotting again..but its ok..soon time will help me thru..geez..hmm ya..in the meantime let me tell you that i love you...ok?ehehe..nah..orite..btw that ,"human maze" i wrote..cant call it a poem..cant call it nuthing but just words that left unexpressed....sometimes u left unanswered..but its a matter of time u get over it or u just get the hell out of it..either way it works la sue..heh...so..i suppose to watch a show on tv..got carried away in here..i tink..thats about it..well ya...uhm..my sis donwload songs from seventeen..indo band again i gez..nice songs...groogy voice..hee..so..wat else eh..nuthing i guess...well orite..yep..
adious.
17 december 2005.11.02 pm

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

yikz...everything is released now.im sure thats the end of my teka-teki..rhymes all this while...sick~~still dint wanna admit it.im badly hurt.ive been shot lotsa times in my head n now everywhere...dan semuaaaaaaaa ternyata dusta belakaa...yang tlah kita sepakati ternyata kau khianatii..kau menangis di depanku tuk membuat ku tertipuu......wats next..is to sit down n think.time's up sue.adious
1.36pm-12 december2005

suhaili @ Sunday, December 11, 2005 | comment link here

Saturday, December 10, 2005

hmm..hie..today woke up..was really tired..but got to wake tho..ive planned all well..but part of it was cancelled..im sori.....b.....becuase my sister nak belanja mkn pizza n kfc kat rumah bibik liza..i tink becos bazli pass his end yr exam..heh...at first dint wanna go..but bik liza accord..of coz i go..lol..hmm..den went meet baby bob..yeaph...went to bugis..bought a bag...leather fake bag i gez..lol...den went to eat at the coffeshop...geez..miss tt place loads..had a fun time...even tho there is still no lane that i can depend on now..but im oki as long i have my mama beside me..lol...btw bazli got a 25cm panasonic handphone..he told me that n i saw it..sooo cute uh the hp..krekrkekrke.....hmm..ya..dunt feel like typing oredi..tts about it.sorie b...hmm..i tink lets end it here..n see wat time decide on u ya b..adious
12.36am-11dec05.

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Friday, December 09, 2005

hmm..yeasterday was a hard up day..rough day..tiring uh..whutever it is..in summarised word."orchaRD road with e manager"..ive summaried enuff...need to get rid bad moments..lol..hmm,today woke up kinda late.like i said..there's nuthing to do..ure broke..u got no work..no sch..none..lol..so waste my time till 4 pm..tt was a lot of time uh..but takpe...used to it oredi,den only at four i do popiah..geez,if goreng confirm crunchy sia..lol..do popiah til evening..den eat.. n now ya..im slacking....hee...easy life eh.........
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............................................................................NEW FOUND GLORY..................................
............................................................................THE USED......................................................
............................................................................adious......................................heee......geez.....
7.55pm-09 december.

suhaili @ Friday, December 09, 2005 | comment link here

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

now its 8 december.
first i lost my lane.
second i lost the road.
third i lost my direction.
and NOW ive losst my vehicle.
do you get wat i mean??
..urgh..im rotting at home day by day,besides doing or so called working for my mom..do her "epok-epok" biznes..laundry biznes n ol...jus that,im rotting.not by day.but by seconds of it.turn 90 degree there is my kitchen.turn 180 degress there is my room.damn..walls everywhere..urgh...somebody kill me plz..put a bullet in my headddd...aye aye,i tink tomorow eh..its either i go out with my fren to find a job..do some ironing to get some money or i dunno uh..sick..where eh,urghh,"mummy its over!!!!!!!!!!"
i wanna make my things straight.but there is no..no..wats that werd..n now ive lost my brain?!geez.sick uh~
kk..wats next..it looks like im talking to myself uh...anything uh..its my blog neway,who wud read it..only those who wanna sue me for complaining about my life?..sick sick sick,...who wud have gez that everything has stop now?...who wud even care to bother bout other ppl biznes?............................
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i told them not to care
push the worries as u had urs
y bother ppl shoes
since u wore urs..
y care bout ppl
since u dunt care bout ur own being
why bother to cry
even when ure sad..
because u got feelings tts y u cry??..
gez we got it all jumbled up..
u cry mayb becos ure too soft..
or shall i say..ure emotional?..
well ya its trueee,its feelings we're talking about..
eh whatever la sue..tis not going anywhere..crap..crap crap..its raining now..must be windy out der..like ~~~~..heh..i dunno uh..i feel sick.so sick that i can vomit slugs..vomit a real outcome of the burger.lol....
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.......................................its simple la sue.........................
just ........................
...............................................8 DECEMBER-1.33AM.
adios

suhaili @ Wednesday, December 07, 2005 | comment link here

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