wo xiang ni.

welcome to me.most exciting things

I Do:are Chunks of Jargons that one

speculate boredom but & exclusively

entirely otherwise for me.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

diagnosed with cancer
brand name for illness
its branded name
for an illness
some ppl has it
has a branded illness
living on borrowed time
is all wat they cud do
ppl ard them
just cud fulfill wats last wish of them
world life
thingy teh say
value life
is only they cud do
since branded illness like this
lies with the fate of HIM..

yea..just now just watch channel new asia..ppl ...kids who suffers from cancer...hmmm.....sad world ...value of each secs means so much to them...how i respect tt.....how about if they regret living each day..yikz..sedih uh..if only i cud i wud help..but its beyond my reach to help tho..

suhaili @ Saturday, October 30, 2004 | comment link here

Friday, October 29, 2004

PETER PAN - Mungkin Nanti [ print lirik beritahu teman ]
Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal matiSeperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri

peter pan songs r nice one...hmm...listen to it makes a peace mind out of it..there u go..

yesterday...was helping my mother with da kueh tart...woo...ngantuk uh buat kueh tart..but then atika raket kall up nak buka kat bugis sana...so ask my father...he allow..ahaha...went down to bugis...went along with faizah,yaya,atika raket n me...ate mee wantan...damn spicy..i hate tt...bibir semua mcm rasa panas2 gitu.....urgh...the uncle there was kelakar...heh...the bowl was orange os the spoon also orange la kan...den dia kasi silver normal nya spoon..ahaha.....was all havoc bila nak buka..lagi2 tempat tu byk melayu....malu uh..havoc tak bertujuan....ahha.....terlupa nak bwk radio bila gi bugis nak buka...ahaha.....untuk dgr bang..ehehe.....den yg kelakar tu..mak atika raket kall..dia akte lagi 3 minute nak buka.....wahahha.......mak ai...kelakar sey.....den leps tu...makanan tak sampe2...skali kakak kat situ yg buka ckp,"dik dik..da leh buka"..ahaha......den i was like....ouhok..terima kaseh..ehehe.....den went to walk ard after tt...the bag there geram2 seh tgk..nak beli mcm tak berani je takut menyesal lak...ehehe......n my sister nya gile..msg pakai net byk2..tebiat nya org.....den after tt we went to this parkway ke mana...we tot tt thing was an mrt...kite turun uh tu mrt..n the escalator was so damn slow.....so we run down the escalator...nobody was there..not even a soul....so me n atika was shoutinh..."helo.."with the echoes uh...skali we walk down go up again..its like 3 slopes uh..den skali...ader escalator..the moment faizah pijak je...the escalator terus bunyi ..its sound so eerie n its like a ghost...mampus..bila tgk atas it was sooo dark.....semua lari..ahaha...den iwas scared.i pull aitka raket shirt n run together with her n shout at the same time.....wahaha......n my jeans is dropping...whaah...gile......den bila lari balik nak kena naik tu balik escaltor yg slow tu......aiyooooo...da tak larat..i was the last behind......i feel sumthing is behind me..honest!i swear..sumthing is behind me...ishhh...seram seh...gosh......bad experience...

today went to sch...got recongnition day..heh......sit in the hall......sick place..mayb my last time spending ym days in bowen...tink so.....hmmm...den after skool...went to wlds drop by decide to watch a movie..DA DOLL MASTER...ahaha......nice story..tot it was a org putih sotry..skali jepun sesat..ehehe........first watch everybody was shouting ..gile.....i got no reactions..skali bom...woah...scary uh...wahahaha...den went back home...feel so tired i go back n sleep......hmmm...buka roti prata tadi...nice..tts all......pathetic but nice one..adious

suhaili @ Friday, October 29, 2004 | comment link here

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

hmm...today....was damn sleepy all along...bgn sahur..mkn trus tdo balik.....hopeless..ahaha...den sleep along....den my sister ntah ape mood gile..lately she has been bumping to beside me on the bed and hug n kiss me..tak betul uh dia tu...irritating nowadays..but its ok..still can tahan..ahaha.....woke up at 9 am today..but continue to sleep lepas kemas katil..ahaha...cant be bothered to help my mom with da kueh today..byk org kat dapu..dunt tink they need my help..but later on..i help her..since one of the workers da balik kan.....hm..den tadi buka nasi telur and sambal goreng with kicap...eh nice man..ehehe..den tgk cerita cine.n here i am again...k...nice day..thanx...n hey...it was a full moon today..admiring it beauty...heh...full moon......woo...okila..adious

suhaili @ Wednesday, October 27, 2004 | comment link here

Sunday, October 24, 2004

I'm not a perfect personThere's many things I wish I didn't doBut I continue learningI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to knowI've found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is youI'm sorry that I hurt youIt's something I must live with everydayAnd all the pain I put you throughI wish that I could take it all awayAnd be the one who catches all your tearsThats why i need you to hearI've found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is You [x4]I'm not a perfect personI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to knowI've found a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is youI've found a reason to showA side of me you didn't knowA reason for all that I doAnd the reason is you

comment:-- tts a song..ive chucked it together....nice song typical one tho..but hell its nice...hmm....

Sampaikan salam buat semuaSalam terakhir salam teristimewa Kepada kau yang tersayang Pada teman yang ku kenang Pemergian ku ini tak dirancang Usah bertanya mengapa akuMengucap salam terakhir kepada mu Kerna waktu berputaran Bimbang tak berkesempatan Melahirkan kerinduan terhadapmu( korus 1 )Demi sebuah kenyataanYang amat menyakitkanAku yang tidak berdayaHanya berserah padaNya( korus 2 )Salam akhirSalam yang teristimewaKepadaNya ku memohon keampunanMelaluiNya ku beri kemaafanKepadamu( ulang korus1, korus2 )Andainya aku punya waktuMasih ku ingin mengulangi semulaSaat indah bersama muSayang tak berkesempatanAbadikan saja salam ku di ingatanSalam ku yang terakhir

comment:-- this song is nice..its true..wat if..?hmm..i wonder..

orite...tts jus two songs...nice,pathetic one..eheh...but still nice but then again pathetic one..ehehe....k today...woke up early today....den intention was to help my mother with the kueh raya again...but then niari pemls semacam..tak tlg sgt..but then again still help uh..mesti tlg sikit pun jadi la...then buka tadi had sate.....mak milah belikan....den went down turun bawah..temankan mak beli benda rumah..skali kedai tutup..ehehe..den pergi phoon huat..nak beli hi card pun tak jadi..da terlanjur ask abg faizah ambik benda dia skali under my void deck..nak pass benda dia....den my mother went nagging at me..all away.....k its sick ouhrite..adious

suhaili @ Sunday, October 24, 2004 | comment link here

Friday, October 22, 2004

today..was yet another day...did nuthing but kueh raya...orders~...yea...duduk kat kerusi tu rasa pinggang nak patah...today...18 butter of cornflakes..ahaha.....made it again..but it get on my nerves tho.....ahaha....had pizza...for today buka puasa....okila...roslinah treat da family...kenyang sampai ke otak..heh...tipu la...hmmm....i miss my mom...padahal kat sebelah aje.....eheheh........adious~

suhaili @ Friday, October 22, 2004 | comment link here

Thursday, October 21, 2004

hai...hmm..lagu dtg kerna kata lalu beriramakan melodi..ia berpusing kan kata lalu hati..memainkan perasaan...
lagu lirik yd direka oleh baby romeo they r nice songs..woohoo...bunga terakhir..angsa putih...wow....geez...today do 18 butter of cornflakes..wahaha...ive did it again this yr..tak uh..da lama tak buat kueh..abeh tadi buat tlg mak mcm biasa....merana tu...duduk takleh bangun2..trus.....ahaha...now listening to peterpan--ada apa dgnnya...nice song...hmm.....so today basically kueh's all da way...n...im done..ahha...tgh tunggu buka nie..ehehe......hmmm...niari mak masak murtabak cracker..been so long tak makan tu..now its coming back..ehehe..da lah..adious

suhaili @ Thursday, October 21, 2004 | comment link here

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

yea..hope things get better..give me the brighter side..pls...problems dunt resolved overnite..but it helps me thru the nite..wahaah...wat crap is tt?..hell......hmm...today is wednesday..ahaha...ape nie suhaili..??!..kk..im fine..wondering kenapa dia pergi...so suddenly....._ _ _ _ _ _ _.........urgh...hella of a weird..forget it..adious

suhaili @ Wednesday, October 20, 2004 | comment link here

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

izinkan aku mencintai kau sekali lagi
tapi sempadan yg memisahkan saya dan awak
yg dianggap aku mempermainkan cintanya
im not tt sorta gal..
jus go...

words are made up..if ever news dtg....i regret my whole life..i do..dunt tell me he is sick..tell me he's fine..amaze..adious

suhaili @ Tuesday, October 19, 2004 | comment link here

Monday, October 18, 2004

yea..today went to sch and mr rahmat ali was saying bout making a card for the grandparents..golden years..so dint tot bout making a card jus a poem..and this poem is dedicated str8 to my nenek..ehehe..my beloved one and only nenek...she understand even tho she dint tell me..i noe when she is trying to tell me something....even u dunt surf..u cant read in eng..but this poem is for you...ehehe...jus for you nek..k here goes for u nek..orite---

People say
life is something blessed
something worth's of a mother care
Hey
its a basic
when there is young
there is old
da young for teenagers
da old for grandparents
grandparents are old by nature
but young at heart
salt intake is much taken
experienced gained you cant mention
Golden Years is part and parcel
oh human lives
till e end of time

k..there u go nek...she's 85 this yr..semoga panjang umur ait nek..i love u nek..u noe tt..ahahah..muakz...muack..adious nek..blog..verybody..adious~

suhaili @ Monday, October 18, 2004 | comment link here

Sunday, October 17, 2004

hiya..dead bored uh..wat the hell is happening to me?duk rumah boring gi skola boring...wohoohoo....i wanna out of this bood singapore..its hell....k stop ur crap..now in having maths lesson but then there is no lesson as ns rasyidah says we need a rest.wahahaha...k..bowen is boring so is singapore.so which and wat is not boring?..its wat we say...hella holla of a weird...k fine..im out.im don.i cant explain im dying ppl..save me.no u dun have to jus laugh while im goin...or..jus shut da hellup..this is it!adious

suhaili @ Sunday, October 17, 2004 | comment link here

Thursday, October 14, 2004

apa yg mungkin
aku rasa saat ini?
berkecamuk dunia otak aku
nak ikut kan
ato
tidak?
hey..
help me blog..

bulan ramdhan kini menjelang
hey
aku cukup gembira
i mean
cukup excited mayb..
but ya
ppl go n come
aku tak tau ape yg aku merepek
to u all
slamat berpuasa

im feeling hell rite now..upsdie down noe..help me ppl..nigga?where u..i need u.....ahaha.....fine..nobody is helpin me..................SEBAB i Din ask anybody......geez......stupid idiot am i..adious

suhaili @ Thursday, October 14, 2004 | comment link here

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

anak melayu
salahkan dunia
menyalahkan
mengecilkan
mengetawakan mereka..
tingkah
laku
gerak mereka
yg mengakhirkan mereka sebegitu
hey
bukan salah dunia
anak melayu
seperti aku
ditertawakan oleh mereka
kerna
tingkah
mmg membuat kita
anak melayu
menjadi leka lalu jatuh ke dlm
tong yg dianggap sampah aja
hah
bodoh jugak org yg mentertawakan
kita,
anak melayu
kerna
kita masih diperhatikan oleh mereka
orang yg lebih sampah
dan hina dari kita..
wahahaha

jus loads of craps from my point of view...first point of view i didnt support mly ppl...becos due to hell attitude and they still got cheek ckp melayu mmg slalu kena kutuk..look at urself la ppl.....urgh but at another those who are watching we mly ppl are more of a crap,go find ur own work goosebumers..im a mly..mungkin org mesti kata..but hello its my blog its my space..hell with ppl wat u wanna say..kalau asyik nak dgr org kata aja..bilanya saya ni nak maju?ahaha..

todays day..was early todae while everybody is late today..so guess wat?im all alone...eheh...ppl all havoc ar recees time at studyarea..im all alone..eheh....but hey its nice to be alone listening to music..its like..peace man..ehehe...dne rena came along..so now in couples...ahaha...den ppl been asking me why u come back..tot u all holiday..yada yada..n got to explain to each one of them..hell...hate tt man...n ya i notice tt..erm..dia..hikz..nvm..adious

suhaili @ Wednesday, October 13, 2004 | comment link here

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

k..had bad sway day actually..yesterday nite i broke a plate den yeah,"crash"..sweeping the crushes pieces of the glass and hell go to my leg..hikz..pain...urgh...then..lately pass few days..bpk has been mcm nak carik pasal with me..here and there he is sure not happy..not to make him sound bad but ya ya..aku la.....urgh..then next day i woke up at ard 8 am plus ard there..i woke up..he also woke up..finding fault again with me..hey its pain in da...urgh...then i go to school becos got some qm things to do in da band room...i waited for 73 bus..urgh hell of a weird..i stood there wait for 25 minutes...imagine tt its like..testing my patience or wat?.....ya when i reach band room then i feel released..can have my fun...joke ard with rena,valen..dzul and syafiq..yibing also...out of da house is better at tiimes..clean the stuff here and there...nice one..then atika came along..wanted to find a job..went for an interview..go to pasta watever it is..masuk lak da apply..skali ternampak mcm liquor thingy..ler..da apply mcm gitu la....org yg interview lak mcm org jepon..yg masa tgk paper aje..ahaha...n ckp pun mcm jepun nya stlye ape je la dia tu..gile .no rezeki la kan...den went to breeks at amk..nearest one..den lepas tu petgi seoul garden..ahaa...n wat a coincidence same manager uh..n he saw us n we were like,"are u the one from breeks?"den he like smile...we was like..its ok then and we go ....tired..walk in and out of toa payoh..but gain nuthing..heh....ntahla....tadi balik pun ppl in da house finding fault..mcm dulu when im in band..semua carik kesalahan in band saying tt i have attitude at home..ok i have attitude..but i try to change ppl jus wont see it..fine tts one thing and now im not in da band..wat fault do i have?i do have faults but k..nvm..adious~

suhaili @ Tuesday, October 12, 2004 | comment link here

Saturday, October 09, 2004

9 october..my nenek birthday today-- yg ke 95..semoga panjang umur eh nek..longlive..yes...ehehe...its been since a long time tak tgk nenek..few months i guess...tadi baru jumpa dia..well muke dia cengkung..she is sick but better now....family reunion tt kind for her birthday...then..ya slack sitting at one corner of da house and the makcik2 pakcik2 keep asking me to eat..hell..i know when to eat uh..haiz..jus concern maybe..heh.....i meet abg udin..irfan..long time tak jumpa diorang..hmm..now meet them..ya...inga nak jumpa cik esah..she wasnt there...but its ok...hari raya insyallah....hmm....den kak lin ajak gi northpoint with her..went together with her and her guy n ira and my sis...jus walk around here and there..tak berpetujuan org kata...heh...den went back to rumah nenek...sit beside nenek had a chit chat with her...wanted to suapkan cake...but dia tak biasa..ehehe.....then she eat herself..tt was cute..tired is da word..sleepy also..or maybe sick?heheh...went back home..ya then ader malaysian idol...yea...jaclyn victor win..congrats ya..im one of ur fans tho...sampai sini aja ait..adious~

suhaili @ Saturday, October 09, 2004 | comment link here

Thursday, October 07, 2004

ya helo..eheh...hmm oki...today had geo paper at 2 pm..it was a good one...but before tt jumpa atika racket kat skola at 9.15 am pergi blaja kat studyarea..did study...terima kaseh atika..ehehe...then arif came along nak balaj how to do gradient from atika racket..den diorang nie dua pulak lapar pergi kedai melayu near 7 eleven tu..they eat nasi lemak?ahaha.....didnt join in to eat..no mood..ahaha.....first time..tink so..ahah...then went back to school..learn for final verse and go exam hall..k...nice paper...ahaha......hmm then..da bis buat...go bus station with faizah jannah and mardhiah...den faizah board the bus..jannah me mardhiah go pergi beli bubble tea..hmmm..out of the sudden the "gala"..heh chum sim pop out of nowhere..join us..then mardhiah nak kena balik so went to hougang mall with jannah..on the way got this little child crying..hilang kat along the way...aprroach him but he cry and run...mcm kesian gitu...nak pergi tlg dia nanti ape pulak kan..hmm then actually pergi hougang mall tu cuma nak ckp2 aje uh.....go library sit n tok...ehehe...then masuk keluar balik pergi toilet..da pergi mcm budak bodoh masuk toilet keluar balik pergi public phone..and this jannah public phone tyu is not working and she bang tt public phone..abeh keluar duit!!..eheh...then i bang second time..come out money again..bang again da takda..earn 60 cents aje...ehehe.....rezeki tuh.....ehehe......tts all for today..selamat tinggal..adious

suhaili @ Thursday, October 07, 2004 | comment link here

kadang
bila hati berdentam
semua jadi tak kena
seringkali
menjadi tanda tanya
baik ato tidak
ato mungkin
cabaran semata-mata..
mengeluh diri sendiri
penat juga aku yang kena
adakah
ini hanya
fikiran?
ato..
hati yg berbisik berkata?
mungkin
dua-duanya salah
jawapan mmg tak boleh dicari
cuma satu
mungkin lah
jawapannya
ingin tahu?
itu perasaan kan?
ah
mmg penat aku sendiri
itu aku~

-----------------------------------------------------------
berulang kali
aku berfikir
mana yg benar
ato
yg tidak
atau kami yg harus buat pilihan
iya
memang benar
pilihan mmg kami yg buat
cuma
ada aja yang tak kena
kerna itu
manusia salah membuat pilihan
lalu kesal
kerna satu aja senjatanya
yang membuat kita salah pilihan
kata-kata
yang tercemar
dari mulut orang binasa

----------------------------------------------------------

antara
angan-angan
dan
cita-cita
mana satukah yg benar?
dalam diri
aku rasa
angan-angan hanya bayangan
cita-cita hanya mimpi
kerana dlm diri ada mimpi
begitu juga bayangan
oleh itu
larila aku
dgn mimpi dan bayangan~

ya..pelik aje...tts my thoughts..adious~

suhaili @ Thursday, October 07, 2004 | comment link here

Monday, October 04, 2004

akum.....hmm..today was eng paper..i got this bloody running nose..cant concentrate..hell..here and there flu.....hehehe...sick is the word...saya da ckp exam dtg im sure to fall sick...before i go to exam hall tadi...i take inhaler..kena asthma..pathetic man..with the hair falling....urgh.....tlg.....maths paper besok.....haiz..dunia dunia..kenaper mesti ader ujian..???nie la..org tak prepare n hello...gd luck only fall with ppl who studies..mind you.....hikz..its not me...so its ok i will still do my best..adious~

suhaili @ Monday, October 04, 2004 | comment link here

Bowen pancaragam..eheh..this for u..live with it..

The bandroom were opened at eight-thirty that morning,
and the band members started streaming in.
There were seniors,juniors combining talents
some came into the band room with confident strides.
But most stood alone at any corner they could find.
When they just learnt to be a new band member
It has been done on the very first day.
Unlocking each identity for further interaction
Which one way through that can be taught in the space of notes
It was not until a soul drew his own curtain
and build a bowen military onto his shoulder that
the murmuring filled the band room
He guided us
in the magic of his own music and
teach us with most patience
even knowing we are weakas much could be help
back then
until….

Faint music was heard from the back of the room
withdrew a curtain and was now playing.
Guiding us along the music,parade
Was just the back of the memories
As we played,marching, everyone[juniors] came closer and
one by one they picked up an instrument and played along.
The guitars, French horns, euphoniums, tubas and more
gathered harmoniously in a jubilant symphony,mlitary they call
From the sounds of the Canon in D Major to
the overtures and rhapsodies, music filled the parade and study area they call as
more joined in the military as years passed it by.

The military-life is concluding after four long years.
Along the journey, strings have snapped, sticks broken
and even chords have played out of tune.
But they have been fixed time and time again,
by the very friends that we have made.
Our lives are like creating music,
learning the notes before we start,
then breaking the rules when the time is ripe
and finally playing them all right from the heart.
Every band member has its own story to tell and impart,
just like the one that is about to depart.
Perhaps there might be another for the next generation,
to carry the torch of a band tradition.

The band members is concluding after four long years,
it is playing the notes of its final verse.
The music will stop when the tenure is over,
and become a memory for every band member.

-suhaili-amj`
this poem is dedicated to all the bowen military band members.to each of one who has graduate.this poem has its own meaning and bet the band members understand and analyse it in ur own way.ive made this poem for bowen military band and for u i live-this poem comes right from my heart~..thankew..

adious~

suhaili @ Monday, October 04, 2004 | comment link here

Sunday, October 03, 2004

ya hie..today is sunday n tomorow my n level eng paper..feeling very hell..so fast..and at this tyime i still dunt feel the pressure...dunno why..hmm.....so today was a good day for me..cant wait for the weekend...jus want to get it over with...aahhaa...hmmm...tts all ait..no mood..jus got the calling to study sudenly..no..before tt mkn dulu..energy uh.....wheheheh....dgn itu salam manis dari saya..adious

suhaili @ Sunday, October 03, 2004 | comment link here

Friday, October 01, 2004

hie..days gonna pass very fast this time..2 more days to my n level..mayb soon gonna leave this pathetic bowen life..heh..all da fun ..memories in the band, in da class..with ma frens..disturbing teachers..laughing at the sec one's ,singing national anthem in the parade square...recess time spent.. gonna be out of my life soon..heh...so..hmm..jus being emo here.wahaha......kk no emo no more...no matter what Ill be back for more...wahaha.....not in bowen then do it in other places...aitz...yesterday after school..was released at 11am..bcos ader thingy bout sec 4 graduation leaving certificate..hmm...then went to temankan faizah at the bus stop...den meet jannah n mardhiah den decided go long john silver kat amk...mardhiah n myself eat jannah didnt..eheh..no appetite mayb...then went to mrt guardian go buy magazine manja...ari wibowo!!..ehehe.....then duduk kat tepi2 cheers mcm manusia yg berpetujuan.....ahaha.....waited for jannah guy arrival...wahaha......then after tt mardhiah go my house n check out the webbie this kind of stuffs..mkn...den she went back home..by then mata pun ngantuk i sleep..ehehe.....so tts all about yesterday fri..maybe my last friday spent in bowen...heh....,"bila otak tak tenteram,buat kata bercelaru~dalaman samudera begitula mimpi aku."adious~

suhaili @ Friday, October 01, 2004 | comment link here

about

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

Prefer living within own expense.No point aiming when its not yet.im a on-GOIng dreamer extremists.

chinese.is.you@gmail.com

Listen.