No name

2009-11-18T20:03:00.000-08:00

In the ordinary world
we trust in things that belong
everything has a place
and believing in that makes us innocent
and through the days under the same sky
we hope,dream and laugh,
we find and lose our way
endings are beginnings
and moments like pieces fit together again.

2009-11-11T04:13:00.000-08:00

I was sitting in the train when this aunty got a bit excited.Or shall i say,this aunty got too excited,press the red button in the train and shouted, " SOMEBODY FAINTED!!!" like 3 times.

I am so lucky that she is beside me,her voice was super loud and for a second her voice makes my mp3 sound smaller.

On a lighter note: the Chinese guy who sat beside me is super-charming that even Shin Dong cudnt beat it.

And OH !
Johor Bahru trip with all of them 3 are madness.
I wish it stays there forever.
Mwah!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-06T07:56:00.000-08:00

I keep saying he will be back,but today,again,I lied.

2009-10-24T23:33:00.000-07:00

Been such a long while since Ive updated ei?!

Jakarta trip's good! cus I bought a handful of toys.
A toy that you can throw it flat on the floor-ceiling-wall and it turns like a liquid and then formed to its ori shape again!
wow!

Kuala Lumpur.
I flood the bathroom.Hahaha!
At coffeebean was hilarious,cus I wanted so much to proof that I can put my arms under my leg?
First time ever,I saw someONE! bought things they like but got so fumed up and pissed because someONE couldnt fit in the items inside their bag!
Baskin Robbins: "aku suka cone dia." Swine.
Lastly,Shahila bought a blue sweater and she likes it.Expression dia amat mahal sekali apabila beliau nampak sweater ber-kolor biru. Sane? Not.

Today.
My obek from clementi is coming over just because she wants to dye her hair black and cut her hair.

"Like a deer in the headlights,he's given up"

Another.

Kids says the Darnest thing.

Kak su: Bazli,later your voice pecah,you call me okay? I want hear.
Bazli : I dont think my voice will break.
Kak Su: It will break. its like girls stuff.some girls got their menses at 11 yrs
old.some got theirs at 16 yrs old.
Kak Linah: You have wet dream already?
Bazli: What is wet dream? Oh,when the sperm comes out right?
Kak Linah: Yes.
Bazli: My friend says (shows the action) stroke up and down it will come out
Kak Linah: Your one got come out?
Bazli: No.
Kak Linah: That means,havent.
Kak Su: Siak!

He has grown up.Gosh!

2009-04-19T21:12:00.000-07:00

"For He never said life would be easy.
He just promised it would be worth it."

Previously.
Had karaoke session.
It felt like a mini rock concert.
Guess,next should be Paintball!
HEEh.

5 more months to fun.
They who are involved are looking forward as much,I know.
Ive spent many much communication cum
excited-oh-madness-me on this with Lally.
I've got myself into one enormous fight on this with ketty.
And merry is being a appreciated good-behaved friend because she don't make me go wild and mad.
Haha!

On another note.
"that day will be the day that no one can have it but me and us."

Much Love.

2009-04-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

5th April 2009.

If every word I said made you smile, I'd talk forever.

2009-02-12T09:35:00.000-08:00

So they tell me how much they miss the times we had.
Or rather miss the aura for being together.
Bitching,Laughing and Yawning away.

To all whom I missed.
You guys know who you are.

For each and each of you.
When it rains,stand in the rain and catch the rain drops.The ones you catch is how much you miss me,the ones you miss it,is how much i miss you guys.

Darn!
Bring me back the ol sick time!

Kudos.

2009-01-31T03:37:00.000-08:00

Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life.
Define yourself.

p/s: wa cinta sama lu !

Kudos.

2008-12-31T08:30:00.000-08:00

2008 is not coming back like the other years have died.
No surprise.
Prolly just a warm welcome to 2009 worldwide.

Uhm.
"Jadi skrang korang sume da boleh buang tu calendar,tunggu bulan puasa lepas tu kite hari raya lagi mcm tahun lepas.
Geylang tetap jual tu dengdeng ngan air kathira.
No worries cik!"

Next.
A friend questioned me.
"Hows your new year?"
"Nothing happen,no fairy came."

Anyway.
I'm in love with 36 year old man.
Ami James from Miami Ink.

Kudos!

2008-11-23T06:18:00.000-08:00

Nenek.
I have not left you.
I am only separated from you.

Kudos.

2008-10-13T07:38:00.000-07:00

My friend said that we could not eat at Sakura due to RECESSION.
LMAO!

The anal part is: I am not able to shout out loud to all whoever I have been missing even tho they are just a phonecall away.

&

At times like this, words cannot say the things I wish I could, but may it be a help to know my thoughts are there with you.

Sayang korang.

Kudos.

2008-09-13T08:45:00.000-07:00

A lot other shrugs.
Goodness,take drugs!
Isn't it a good idea?
Wobble your way down.
And tell me what its like!
What a way to begin it all SHRUGerrrsssss!
I'll say,Over the red light district,"Hello mr Convict!"

According to me.
I have excelled in activities such as chilling and laughing. Can say that probably I chill and laugh half of my life away. Hope to represent Singapura in it one day and sometimes i wish there was no such thing as Time.

On the other note: im a girl who enjoys her shit.

Anyway here's a quote.
"No justice will be dealt unfair,If in your heart you're kind"
Geddit?

Kudos!

2008-09-04T10:42:00.000-07:00

"But, there are time I have to smile,Cause, he was mine, just for a little while."

Kudos.

2008-08-06T02:51:00.000-07:00

working is fun.
a bunch of madness oh! , i wont run.

Kudos.

2008-07-12T21:10:00.000-07:00

Here is where I put it.
I may sound like a basket case since I`ve got guts to spill.
Living Bummer.
A rocking and rolling gilah punyer babi life.
There is nothing in it but there's something to it.
I am Indire of.

Dear mr road accident,
"lu tolong bilang sama dia,muke byk buluk takmo setep mau own in singGAHPORE.lu pusing kiri ada van.lu pusing kanan ada lori.lu jln depan ada budak buntal.maciam mana tkda load accident."

Kudos.

2008-06-08T08:54:00.000-07:00

Kosong.

Dear cik monty,

jika.pelangi.selalu.tidak.pernah.ada.mengapa.ramai.semu.menyaksikan.
jika.merasa.itu.tidak.akan.pernah.hadir.mengapa.ramai.tunduk.menunggu.
jika.hari.ini.yang.terakhir.mengapa.ramai.yang.duduk.Jauh.
"mungkin ulat gong-gong akan turut menari trus walau jantungnya berhenti berdetak lagi."
Tercucuk.

Prolly,it's never been.
Heh.

Kudos.

2008-05-31T01:49:00.000-07:00

It came back again.
Something to complain.
A slit cut at young running through my veins.
Little molecules floating around,insane.
its Numb Mr.Benny.
its NUUUUMMMMMB- rrRRAAAARGHHHHHH ! .

Another.
it hasn't been long since we sit & just talk.
until it reach to a fullstop .
and down with it was our insecure.
as we slowly broke contact more and more.
Hell knows if it felt insane.
As you were.
Pork Chop.
PorkPork-keh.
Pig.

Eighteen days left,mom is coming back home from her Boyan trip.
I-miss-my-mom.
Who would have not.
Prolly Benny won't.

I've got a song stuck in my head, one that I miss more than my bed.
Alkekekeekekekekekeke.

I pledge,you never ei?
Aiyer.

Kudos.

2008-05-15T03:15:00.000-07:00

This is what I do.
I blog when there's something came up in my head.
Convicts are saints.
Period.

I don't know for any reasons why.
I miss performing during Chingay.
I miss my late band instructor,Mr Hasyim.

And to you:
You have seen how far the band that you had successfully build got destroyed when you left us with a simple goodbye.
Short message written:Do not let you get disappointed, I'm told.
I had no clue till I got it all lay out with verbal.
6 years had passed me by,I swear I want those moment to get pause at forever.
The day you pull your last
I did not shed a tear
I badly hope to get myself Punk'd.
Now that you have seen us.
Forgetting you at our busiest,reminiscing you with a simple click
a Rewind.

Al-fateha.

A story of today will be a laugh out loud for tomorrow.
Suhaili.

2008-05-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

But,why blue?
Always,I have a habit of sitting down and do my own thoughts aimlessly and they would paste a big word on my forehead;Odd.
But,why blue?
Always,I have quite a quantity demented Unintelligible random spirit and substance of which i am not capable of letting them understand my point.
But,why blue?
Always,I have chose unsure moves plus with a adding anxiety to more of what they had for me and I swear that I did pray hard that they would Not.
But again.Why Blue?

"But,why blue?" : Okay.Hilarious talks always HAS to happen if I am chatting with Lally over at msn.If it does not happen,Tak Sah. But,why blue? came myself with a question why do that man whom created or design had chose to color his jeans blue?

For Another.
I was asking ketty if we should or not do our own code to chat over at msn.And always,she's a pig.
I told ketty my favorite number is 8
So,she assume.

Ket: Aku tau asal ko suke number 8!
Me: Why?
Ket: Sal smua bulat!

Also.
I've edited a piece written that I wrote long ago.Its half-done now and on a run.
I miss shouting at mom for not wanting to hug me when I'm horny or feel cheated or feel at my worst.
I've changed direction to make it look right even though it sounds not quite settling down to make do with.

Apa-apapun,I am tekad to do this.
I pledge to crawl up,you laugh?

Kudos.

2008-04-22T04:30:00.000-07:00

I don't have to literally follow others route in order to earn dollars isn't it?
I assume they think too much for me instead for themselves of which I am proud to say that.
There's no point in explaining after all.They weren't me and I don't blame them for that.
What I believe in is simply jargons to work things out for myself.
So why not just ignore me and take it that i am not being realistic enough and do your laugh out loud at the way on how i choose to live in my upcoming adult time.
somehow,85% of myself will turn out a failure,rather.
And.i'm left with 15% just to make it work and the best part is I don't have to force myself to be like others,earning good grades= earning thick fat bucks.
I believe in knowledge that provides me to be somewhere I intend to be.
But that will take me ages until I am there and that means all that I should have is a journey of my own and not a recognized government certificate.
all these jargons things and ambition that I want to achieve is not ambitious at all.its just an expensive one.
Pardon me if it has offended anyone.but I just needed my part on my own thoughts.

A quote that I came up:
"the only longest moment I can have is my own time line of my own journey."
::suhaili::

i pledge to hear you scream.
Kudos.

2008-03-24T03:22:00.000-07:00

Running.

Is he comforting you?

After he breed one illegitimate child.
Putting on a smile
Like a desperate dog oh-so-wild.

You love him endlessly
the wrong place at the wrong time'
Get suicide
I think you better die
And bid your last goodbye.

Is someone haunting you?

You thought its a religion thing to do.
You thought politicians gonna give in to you.
You thought killing was a shopping-spree.
You thought when you're done with your kill, government would pee.

You run cause you perfectly understood
What you did wasn't good
Stop hiding under your hood
Cause its not helping
Your life's ending.

Is someone leaving you?

She met a lawyer
Had to make her statement clear
All he did was sit and listen
She paid him thousands
When Dollar got situation settled
Virginities gone,self-respect burnt.

Isn't it a humor,isn't it insane
When you can live happily with melted cheese & lemonade
You choose to cry and be afraid.

None provoked
All you portray was a joke
An anecdote.

I came across:
"Why did I love him so much? Because it never ended. It never began."

The simplest words truly strike the deepest chords. Dissimilar meanings, but still a meaning nonetheless.

i pledge to meet invisible man.
Kudos.

2008-03-10T09:20:00.000-07:00

Degradation.

I'm sorry if silence kills you dad.
Assume me not for hate.
I am just reserved with you.
When you make things at home got screwed.

Smuggling a feeling all so tormenting
It looks like emotions got me eating
and I'm hoping a clean ending.

I suppose there's no way to begin
What more to start all over again
I told mom about divorcing you when I was ten
But she told me that you were a good dad
I wonder when could I ever treat you better
Cause anger keeps provoking on me.

I never blamed you dad
You had your deepest conscience
and its eating you up slowly
Somehow,I had your genes a bit.

Now that you gave it up
And mom cant wait to grow old being,Alone
Cause she had it & wants to be at liberty

Im contented
You are still around my presence
I hope you would be fine
and never whine
like how I adapt to your promises
but again,you fake it
and break it
and break it
and break it
in your own sweet time.

Its there and there.
I thought splitting up was hard.
But I guess separation is terribly harder.
Degradation.

Dont worry dad,I'm still standing tall.

Happy Birthday Dad-62

NOfx said:
"I aint No Cinderella, I aint Waiting For No Prince
To Save Me In Fact Until Just Now I Was Doing Just Fine
and On and On"

With just another moment,all of it ends.
Ive graduated from College East on 5th of March 2008.
I'll miss them terribly,but what the heck
I gotta run.
Haha.

i pledge 2012 would be self-reliance completely.
Kudos.

2008-01-13T00:15:00.000-08:00

Somehow I think Jalan Ampas needs a theatre.
On random thoughts,how nice if there would be a theatre only for Asean Movies.
Which again,I vision possibilities.
Budden,on second thoughts,the premises of Jalan Ampas had already has a theatre for Movies.
Therefore,I have picked: Bed is the poor man's opera.
Its a Italian Proverb.

& If only there is something I can write about how interesting yesterday was and how appreciative of today is,but all i could think of is writing this random jargons that you are reading.

Oh! Poptart is Nostalgia.

labels: i fell in love with journalism.Perhaps,literature.Bleah.

i pledge ignoring dogs barking,witnessing shark's dying.
Kudos.

2008-01-04T07:20:00.000-08:00

How do I do this.
Should I assume or just speculate.
The nut about those two options,they are alike.
Through what medium,should I choose.
Or rather,listen to strangers view?
Anal-shit.
Significant treasures fallen-apart.
Best is, it rhymes with the heart.
I swear by there's more than this
And aware of there's more than you.

With all of it: Im indefinite.

i pledge balloons burst,quench this thirst.
Kudos.

labels: nothing left.

2008 Dok.

2008-01-01T05:06:00.000-08:00

Heh.
So here's 2008.
A new year by age with "changed resolution".
Dump that aside.
I'd skip that cus I've come to realise that ive never accomplished any.
No more lies sue!
Haha.

Catch a movie with "white torch" which is ket.Haha.
Chose "I am Legend" and yes our "perangai kebabian" starts again.
I do not know why tho,each time we watch those freaking shock-shock movie,no one near us gives the same reaction like we do.
They dunt move.They remain still.
And I would really be please to assume that they are insensitive-mental beings.
For that: Walauweh!
Heed down to marina and witness fireworks.
Beautiful.
Hail a taxi was #$%*.
Nevertheless,I had a great conversation with apek driver.
Dia gerek Okay?!
Heh.

And Oh.
Incubus concert coming up.
Whoever going, tolong eh. Dunt shout around like moron.
Nak nyanyi,okay uh sikit. Terpekik-pekik.Tembak,mati arh!

Home sweet home has made its called-off few months back.
Guess,I'd call it: drama keluarga.
Quote for it: Abundance, like want, ruins many.

i feel:
Agony.

label: Bila balik Pork?

i pledge to get it done with time.
Kudos.

2007-12-16T03:38:00.000-08:00

Im blogging for boredom-sake.
"N" let my story passing-by.

Kimbakloi asked me out to Chijmes.Plainly to watch soccer.Not a soccer-fan based tho but it feels plainly frustrating having to stay at home due to un-functioning backbone.
Simply said:Its much not fun when there is a list of things I need to do not accomplished.

I came across this quote.
It says: Do not bathe when there is no water.
Its a Shan proverb.
Had no idea what it means but Im giving it a guess.
It means: Dunt pretend to understand,if u dont.
Haha!

I pledge to replace my backbone with another.Anyone?
Pak Lah,buat charity uh sikit.

i feel:
Walauweh.
Kudos.

Mucho Lup,
Sue

2007-12-10T06:16:00.000-08:00

As much as I learn to understand a reason for his departure
As much as I am willing to accept separation of our relation
Awfully,I do not get the hidden meaning behind loosing a few pieces written poetry being thrown away.

These little things I have lost made me completely in a uncertain mode.
Those short poetries were written when I am being employed at Cathay two years back.
Bury aside the agony part,its not just insignificant written poetries,its something written out that I can only feel for one time and never twice.
Another.
Only that piece of written paper may write each story of what it is all about.
And that create another word:"treasure."

Complacent enough having a quote in mind to make me calm
"Be happy while you're living, For you're a long time dead. "

This entry may sound pathetically sick.Indeed it is.Curse me after reading this and I swear you lost your brain being a mental being and never be sane.

Note: I shall keep my treasures inside a locked clamp-shells.

i pledge to learn what "hidden meaning" is.
Kudos.

Mucho Love,
Sue.

2007-11-28T18:01:00.000-08:00

I was in the bus.
It was "unmelodious" tune made by two Chinese girls.
Im saying Chinese not because i am racists.
Im describing.
So noisy for what?
Another.
They were looking at me cuz Maybe Im huge.maybe.
As huge as I am,your Nostrils are bigger.
Bleah.

i pledge to kill you both with a cat.
Kudos.

Mucho Love,
Sue

2007-11-24T19:44:00.000-08:00

Being angry is sane.
Do Pardon me when i am.
Something's worth it: life doesnt always have to be logical but it should always be meaningful.
Understand it or dunt.

Headaches with asthma attacks are a killer.
I need a inhaler for oxygen.
Or extinguisher for the alternative.
Pffffffffffft.

i pledge not to mix you with the other.
Kudos

Mucho Love,
Sue

2007-11-16T01:14:00.000-08:00

Sometimes,staying put is better.And I did.On every word you have said that day,I knew you felt heavy.The choice you made is a certain cus you need to and left you with no objection.The smile you gave me,the phrases you choose has made me stronger.Be it the truth or an excuse,
Ive to understand and so I will.

Other.
Updates about school is a waste of time.
Its been great no less.
Oh,you guys are MADNESS-Shit.

Also.
Apologies to Zis.Im not joining aye!takmo okay.Haha.
Pfffffft.
And.
For each day,you make it a beau.
Your blur-nature makes me fall deeper.
thank you sweet.
hearts out. <3
Note: you soo cute can?

I pledge to smile till ears drop,rabbit's hop.
Kudos.

Mucho Love,
Sue

2007-11-11T01:35:00.000-08:00

I've yet to get my Chinese -English book featuring a Cd.
With other things too.
I hardly would bother whether or not I'm getting the things I want.
Cus I be getting it eventually.
Where a phrase will come along in which:
"In a matter of time and situation will get me there."

Came along a question.
the: What "ifs".
What happen if I still dont get the things I wanted.
Answer to What "ifs".
Then forget it.Dunt try too hard."N" be the honour of yrself by getting other things like..err,
"Cheap Thrill"
One way of getting it: Watching an incredibly sad show and laugh your heads off.

Dunt doubt me.It works.Yes of course! I know it works!Ive tried it and your mom will go like,"eh knapa ngan kau ni?!"[whats wrong with you?!]
That resulted You,to more fulfilling stomach-breakdance laughter cus your mom got shocked,then you got shocked by her shouting and Oops,"n" Ouh Mr lOBa-LoBA!
Conclusion: You laughed more cus your mom will go bizzare looking at you not in the right frame of mind.

Cheap thrill !! yargh!!!
Lol. -.-

Not realising how much Ive actually typed out just to let it being pictured out in letting
"cheap thrill" being explained out in full details.Does it?No?
Ouh buzz off ree-ders.
I'd phrase my language.
Jgn sibok uh,TEpi pls!

Quote to heed: "Remember that what's right isn't always popular and what's popular isn't always right."

Labels: It takes no time to fall in love.

i pledge to meet lola.
Kudos.

2007-11-10T07:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's dead,bury it and get it done.
Here's today that I had fun.
Bee Movie was lunatic.
Kway teow noodle was extra sweet today.
Everything falls into place and Hee luhs! =)

day one: Done.
Who gives a gun if I take forever and be on a run?
Macam aku hutang korang duit.
Shoo!

i pledge we stay.
kudos.

2007-11-06T06:36:00.000-08:00

Marking this date:6 November 07.
Be it true enough or never.
Its for me to saviour with you forever.

Certain reasons that made me choose.
Specially hard to refuse.
When you are in-look-alike with someone close.
And its you i suppose.

So,here's today.
Malah dint shout at me for the whole day.A big smile to you Malah.
Met ahmad.Big gorgeous guy now.Be a man okay!
Mom cook for me loads of nuggets.Thank You.Suhaili sayang Mak!
Rathna is sick today.Get well soon Rathna!Happy deepavali to you and family.
Izah escaped her work cus she was tired.MacD,hire few more staffs,dunt kill my friend.
Aisyah,I wont stop disturbing you till ive repent-ed.Ouh yes,you make me wild! haha.
To all,one more time i'd say this: Hidup mesti mau rilek habis.=)
cheers to all.

I pledge to verify years spent.
Kudos.

2007-11-01T09:12:00.000-07:00

Journey to school was pain.
It took me 2hrs30mins to finally reached school.
For a second: I gave up on rushing.
On any Note: I've always on "slow down" mode.

A big step forward soon.But,its a certain would I not keep it fixed.Reason: I dont like illusions i cant see.Anything that fails,dunt makes me feel insecure tho.read this-
"If you want something very badly,set it free.If it comes back to you,its urs forever,if it doesnt its never urs to begin with."
Heed it.or forget.

Another.
I saw them with behaviour that makes me "dunt wish to know more."
A sense of ignorance pouring out from me.
Knowing and noticed someone would bother more about useless being.
Im less bothered and pls dunt drag me in seeing.
Preferably to you thee.

End.
For a very definite long time.I will board my long lost plane soon.Maybe next month.or tomorrow.Hopefully,there be my 360 turn.That depends on what gear im in.In this journey I would choose time to be a friend.And surroundings to fix my situation.

Not forgetting,"hidup mesti mau rilek habis."- sue.

i pledge to see you when we're asked to.
till eventually Jibek.
kudos.

2007-10-12T06:38:00.000-07:00

Tick-tock.
its the Clock.
with time,raya has come along.
so come,sing me one raya song!
erk!

lets do some sharing.
in malay it goes like," benda baik harus dikongsi. Tak gitu?"
haha.
so here's the good thing.
What is that One thing that is far-fetched from us in this world?
Answer: our past memories.
What is the nearest thing that's always with us?
Answer: Death.

till then people.orh yes.i want to see you in chapal.

buntal wishing you: slamat hari raya 2007.
on a side note: "takmo terkedik-kedik okay?"

i pledge that doraemon exists.
kudos.

2007-09-28T05:12:00.000-07:00

there's a need being dumb.cus i realise being smart would not guarantee anything.in fact,the brain get hurts and you go mental.
heed me.
haha

got my finger burnt.
thanx to mr.oven producing over-reacting heat.
sakit okay.
had sushi for break-fast.
with bandung to get along with it.
i do not know how appetising does it sound tho.
what matters: its throat-filling. =)

Mr ah-pek.
each time it is today
thoughts and memories of us makes me sway
simply said.
i cant leave it behind.

i pledge to hear pak obek singing.

labels: i got shot right through till the bottom two.
kudos

2007-09-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i met paman lali.
today he give me loads loads loads of chocolates.
he basically throw the big box of chocolates and asking me to keep all the chocolates in the fridge.
even with me or even with my mom,he uses this language,"lu-wa-gua."
and if i were to define a grunch soul,"he's the one."
haha.

penyu changed.for a lot whole-different her.not as in everything,but i guess,sometimes penyu,"curiosity kills the cat."nonetheless she stills loves eating sushi.
penyu.i shall seek and boils some,"pig brain soup."for you.
haha.

yes.
holidays been about:earning cash.

i pledge its forever.
labels: my mom is a superr-woman.
kudos

2007-09-10T07:24:00.000-07:00

home has been cold.
like wat ive been told.
mom's old and she has to unfold.

mom apologised.if its her decision to let it go well...oook,its tragedy buntal.but what about everything bapak had been telling me.about the house that is fully paid and telling me about the assurance that i'd have my shelter.
now im shaken.
lesson learnt: Promises=lies
-.-

Noted.10 september.

i pledge to sing along with yellowcard.

labels:This anniversary may never be the same.
kudos

2007-09-07T09:27:00.000-07:00

was at MacD.
i saw a mute guy doing his sign languages.
expressive and intresting.
its nice seeing him being in his own world.
obviously a pleasure to see him so comfortable doing his communication.
in other words,you're special.

exams coming.
no big deal.
fasting month approaching.
yes,am counting.

another,i search for a translation (chinese-english) book.i dint get it.instead the aunty offered me a dictionary.how nice. -.-

i know things will change for penyu.maybe penyu dunt see it.penyu,like i told you dunt take too long before all will go away.

i do not know if the months passed would be much help.
its getting sooner to you,and im not prepared.

i pledge to G-O. go.
labels:another dream wasted on you.
kudos.

2007-09-02T09:02:00.000-07:00

month strikes september.
happy birthday to yew.

i wanted to write one poem for yew but i lack my language tonight.
it doesnt really matter cus you wont be able to read it anyway.
maybe you could until a day you comes back from taiwan?
i wish everything's alrite on ur side.

i pledge i pledge i pledge.
au revoir.

labels:why have time said goodbye.

2007-08-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer:For some reason i dint blog for quite some time because i think ive lost my ability to think and write.Certain reason has stopped me from writing.Whatever comes from my brain, i cant type it out as much as what i feel inside.The feeling totally stuck rite up in the brain.and i guess the reason is because im suffering from a block-head syndrome.

thoughts has run dry.
and im asking why.
cus I cant deny.
everything ends with a goodbye.

something came on my mind about what is a family when at the end of the day we live and die alone eventually?
and if someone thinks my qtn is not making sense in terms of,your answer gonna be like,"this is life.HELLO?" den just kindly please,shut your brain.

nevertheless,im a happy person.LOL.a happy person means i dunt cry like you do.
so here it is,presenting one of gendut-champ talents:

to mom and dad: I dunt get it.
i pledge you to quietened down.
au revoir.

labels:things at home got me killed mentally.

2007-08-08T23:32:00.000-07:00

Eve of national day sure makes ite simei go bonkers.
good effort to all ite simei student counsellors and bridge leaders for successfully taking care of the lift and not allowing us to board the lift.how nice?

saw his twin.
just as cute.
heh..

i pledge to dedicate one wish soon.
au revoir

2007-08-03T08:41:00.001-07:00

baybeats starts today.
planning to go and hear them out but changed our plan.
so if nothing disturbs,we will catch baybeats thingy live on sunday!!!
PENYU!!!

i dreamt of peng cheng.
my dreams are opposite reactions.
conclusion: sue,shaddup.

and aisey baba.
while we were busy recording
we had one opportunity
but yea.
just work it out and see how it goes.

really long since i wrote one poem.
and i miss not writing any.
i need one musician.
to colloborate strumming and gendang-gendang with me.
penyu!!

i pledge to hear you.
au revoir

labels: yew shot me down.

2007-07-26T07:21:00.000-07:00

the fact is: we do not know.
the truth is: we get hurt.
the another thing is: i dunno uh okay.

lately been on this "slowly but surely" mission.
but who knows,im gonna fail again this time round.
so dont bother,sue.
a big thankew to babat lingers for your support BUT not when it comes to your "side-meals" craving okay.yea.

i soo in need of money.to get my stuffs!
money money,come again.

i pledge to do this once and for all...?
i guess so.

au revoir

labels: nobody knows.do they?

2007-07-20T10:01:00.000-07:00

my friday night.
my friday night was doraemon.
my friday night was:nyahahahha.
it means super-"honourable" fun.
AMIRAH!!!!

we chose our all time favourite place to get our dinner.
its at bugis coffeeshop.
nonetheless we ate like a hungry ghost.
or issit me alone?
nyahahahaa.

we ate laksa.char kway fitted fishballs in between.wantan noodles.fried wantan.fish fried noodle and fried fish soup with rice.hee.

went off to haji lane and yes.
more madness.
nothing bothered us besides the our only friend..
shalala!!

KETIAK BASAH nampak!!!
nYAHAHAHA.

and ket was always with her poseh.i feel like pulling her sexy eyes.ahaaa
thanx to rara videocamera to make our journey much a non-stopping laughter.
and to four of us.Cheers yea.
yew guys rocks.

took a bus to boat quay.and the bus driver says that im cute.i was like.thankew uncle!!muackz la okay.
spend the night there and yea.
no last bus.so me and KB took a cab home.so thankew apek for the ride!

to ket n lala.hepi birthday guys.
ket i get u a delayed birthday present.PROMISE!

yeap.had to meet fafa later on.been long since i want to see her haircut uh!
cheh.

i pledge to be as sane as possible.

au revoir.

2007-07-07T22:34:00.000-07:00

mode: never stable.

i can never get one thing right.
this one thing that never exist
that one thing is,"moving on"

Mcfly-Too Close for Comfort.

8 august is coming.
soon enough.
it be a year then.
it still remains the same.

and yea.holiday is fun with some irritating elements that is happening.but hey,nothing is sweet forever.so citizens!! join me in a club of when "sue meets disaster featuring laughter."
ah! crap.orite.
sch resume tomorow.
abeh?
skola arh!!! no complain.i love yew school.
working might be worst off.yea.

on sue's note: because things are the way they are,things will not stay the way they are.

i pledge not to know why cus i know you must have your reasons.

au revoir.

labels: that song is for yew.

2007-06-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

Hail to my long dead blog.

today,i'll be updating about upcoming concert.this is for my own referral due to future madness provided if i own some money.erk.Funeral for a Friend is coming up to Far east at glass house, if im not wrong to perform for the citizens of their fans.So come down to get ur 75 bux poof from your pocket to receive,"their music!!"

futher details are at: soft.com.sg

and another
which ive not updated about
sue runs from her work for three times.
being proud.not.the least thing i would ever want to feel.
BUT a big hooray for me to get blacklisted from their companies.

here's again.
first i got sacked.second i quit.third i stayed.fourth i quit. fifth i quit... sixth?....we'll see la apek!
not actually quit.i just walk off from the company to feel satisfied.
i'd wait for my day where all companies condemn my resume and off you go sue,to BRazil!!!
nyeheheheheehehhe.

that aside.
its kimbakloi's bdae.and cancelled the outing.
so.hepi birthday la sista from my blog screen to ur comp screen okay!

i pledge to love you like yesterday,never again.

au revoir.

here's one song from HUJAN!!!!
oit oit soldier lonely boys.... UIKZ!

HUJAN-BILA AKU SUDAH TIADA

2007-06-17T08:15:00.000-07:00

uikz citizens.

back with nothing.

the only thing that is new:mom and sis is at sabah without me.tommorow they be back with souveneirs.i hope.
nyehehehehhehehhe.
bapak has been good to me without mak and sis.he bought me prata for breakfast,dint scold or actually call me frequently even im back home late.

so to all: im happy.
[haha]

heading off to eunos tommorow for the venture era thing.no comments.only penyu knows.so yeap.im doing and going on accord of sarah and ibrahim.k sue.damn it!!

wat else.

system of a down laid some good music.
one song from them is:- Lonely Day.
"Such a lonely day and its mine..Such a lonely day should be banned.. It's a day that I can't stand and if you
go, I wanna go with you....."
haha.the lyrics!!! alalalalalala

to ITE Simei.to the gendut black and yellow master who check on people land-yard.to the philipin boss who makes my babat tremble.whoever.sooooo lonnng school! buzz off!!!haha.

i pledge to kill the crows under one tree.
au revoir la eh!!!

2007-06-09T05:25:00.000-07:00

one of the craziest night.
three old buddies meet up and welcome sweet.
mabel and faizah slept over at my house.
and there it goes.
friends forever?
heh.

bibik came over my house.
with bazli and balqis.
i gave balqis her the elmo bag i got for her.
erk.
"balqis,you like?"
*balqis runs around*
orite sue.forget it.no answers.haha.

and bibik craves for her paper thosai.
tag along to little india,followed by audiohouse.
there goes my saturday with mom,bibik and her two kids!
thanx.been long dint went out with you guys.

to the only one chinese person.
here i go so dishonestly.

im only a inch towards my sucess?
gonna take forever .ouh hell.
till then.so long airpork.

i pledge to kill sanity,swallow pills. -.-

au revoir.

2007-05-31T06:21:00.000-07:00

uhm.
been quite a while again of everything i dint do which i am supposed to.

my mom told me something while i was sleeping.
mardhiah called me last night.
and i missed her phonecall cuz i was asleep.
been real long since we've catch up uh yaya!!
"when the body goes bum bum bum" its her favourite phrase for me.
ugh.sick!
mardhiah!!!nanti aku call kau!!!!

here's something i wrote.and there it goes:

title:- ___missing yew.

all the thoughts whispering thru me.
been giving me the last call to agree.
accepting the way its just suppose to be.

months already..
im barely ready..
to get all packed up and get away..
from the memories we once weigh.

if wings take you away from me.
would it be forever ure leaving?
would it be for just a moment till we meet again?

turn away my black clouds
i never want to see you again
its getting more mundane
and driving me insane

come again my everyday
cuz i think we've lost our way
wat we own was a beautiful story
my last essay.

a note for us: Not everyone in the world can be your best friend -- and not
everyone deserves to be.

i pledge to count my pills.

au revoir.

2007-05-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

realising one thing again.
its easy to receive. but harder than it seems.
i thought it be much simpler if things would be answered rite away.
even how soon we've started to answer rite up,there still be shits hanging around.

dunt ask wat it means.
to each,send one resemble of phrases.
thats just how i express my thoughts.

to each also give his opinion to any nature or statement they want it to be.
but plz i seek your attention,"do not be self-obsessed, being in your own world in any hope that you think you only have the knowledge to everything just because ure experienced in it."
never to be bold.its never nice.

it dint turn out the way it was suppose to be
and it kills!!!

i pledge to inhale oxygen exhale carbon dioxide.

2007-05-18T06:19:00.000-07:00

back again.
wasnt dead for living presence but surely is dead to blog up.

to all nyonya's out there.i seek attention from your society clan:plz learn to be considerate.ure a living hell.all you guys do is to push people around and get urself a one damn sit sitter for urself.come on.how on earth u want to get rid of ur osteoperosis disease?

i guess now,1 month plus; ure away.
in time ill be alright.

a mission is yet to be accomplished
<-------------------------------------------->
this long.

till my life is altered
so long Singapore.

i pledge to dream in my sleep tonight.

au revoir.

2007-05-07T06:48:00.000-07:00

total madness.
went to slack at mabel's house.

and we were BONKers.
been such a long time since we've catched up.
between us,NOthing has changed.
hee.

telling old stories.
laughing endlessly.
sweet critisizing.
shouting without limits.
thats wat we always do.

all is hugugaga when we meet.wat more when faizah and arif join in the gang.
and yeap.i miss those clique we had.
where rena and valentine be the good ones.
arif and faizah will be the one team.
mabel will be the one irritate the whole gang.
atiqah will be the side joker.
and i be the one laughing loudly at the end of the whole thing.
then they would be like,"SUE!!"

nyehehehehhe.

the band times!!
chingay and little performances..
where i will fall sliding in the wet mud with my tuba.
LOL.

it ends someday.
things changed.memories dunt.

i simply heart you people for the days ive been with.

i pledge it be forever.

au revoir.

2007-05-06T01:31:00.000-07:00

today's topic im going to blog out are a few thoughts thats running as fast as a horse but slower than a hippotamus.

heh.

they told me its gonna take a long long with no definite time, i will have the answers.
or never.
those time was a miss given.

would someone sponsor me a doraemon?
i promise i give you a million doughnuts.

would somebody grant me my ambition?
i promise i'd tell good things to apek about you.

would anyone gives me anything i wished for?
i promise i donate you wig each month once you turns hairless.

heh.talking about hairs.reminds me of BD in class.to you weird gal.im sorry but i just cant stop telling myself to look at your hair time and again.maybe that hairs of urs is my doraemon?
NOO!!!!!!

if you had've only seen.

on deep thoughts: why would i wanna be that?
i pledge at 6:45pm a time i would keep.

au revoir.

2007-05-04T06:54:00.000-07:00

i had a disease.
its called "garfield infection"
lately been feeling sleepy even tho i have slept 10 hourS?..
and this is where i named it,"you must be kidding me"

take note of garfield eyes.its sleepy kinda look.and yes.i feel sleepy time and again.
note to sue: sleep longer.stop talking.

mabel told me she misses me.
nyehehehhe.
we catch up over the phone yesterday night..
and she was again saying,
"suhaili its five year friendship"
mabel also told me how we drifted apart soo much now that she is in lassale and im in "its your choice" school.
nyeheheheheheh.
and she reminded me of a time where she loves to poke my extra fats without fail.
and to mabel," ure emo" yesterday night.
haha.
and and our band times!!
damn! i miss it soo much.
we made a date on monday.
to meet.and yea more madness for us.
the good old times will be back.

i guess it sounds kinky olready.haha.dunt get me wrong.she's a friend who made me cry and laugh like an ass and that is her.lol.but dis time we've grown older and bigger,im sure to protect myself from ur dangerous life-killing jokes.lol.

24 years old will be the age where it be all completed.
it seems that i dint really understand anything at all.
promises killed.
i wish you enough.

i pledge to run,run,run.

au revoir.

2007-04-28T08:53:00.000-07:00

28 april came yesterday and uikz im a year older oready.
so to friends: listen to momma now uh!!
nyehehehehehehe.

eve of birthday,malah aka bird bird,rathna aka thosai,aisyah aka chipmoleh and izah aka pirahna featuring hidayah has made a surprise and yeap.Im Punk'd.but it was all sweet cuz they planned it succesfully without me knowing or get hint at.the sweetest of all,on the cake it wrote,"happy birthday mok-mok" hee.must be bird bird idea nonetheless.the two "before and after" present.i hope i wont dissapoint you guys in these upcoming 9 months?nyehehehehe.erk.short but sweet celebration.thank you to you guys.i appreciate.i really do.heart you people.

following saturday.apologise to jannah and wan for not being able to make it on time to meet you people.sorry titi!!!erk.and yeap.sis break the lady bug and yeap.there it goes another emo shit but,i had to replace it and yes i did.thanx to ket and faizah for accompany me all the way there to get back the present they had given me.bought sushi sushi and more sushi and we head down to esplanade.the gig was like at the other end.and it wasnt user friendly and urgh to esplanade but hee to sushi.

of all people,you werent there.
on sue's thought; ignore shits receive hope.

i pledge to close all ears.hear no sins, listen to all noise.

au revoir

2007-04-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

Asthma has made its attack once again.
and yes ,i cant breathe just as much like i used to.
inhaLer doesnt work anymore when too much shit blocking my airways for breathing.

Asthma is my friend.
seriusly.came visiting me when least i expected it to come.
urgh.

you kill me straight up in the heart and hear no sins. -.-

i pledge not to eat banana kropok anymore.

au revoir

2007-04-16T06:30:00.000-07:00

School finally reached at its timing where all ite kids goes back to school.
"nyahahahahahaha" to all of us.
and not to forget." Welcome Madness to Sue!!!!"
nyeheheheheehe.

first of all...
a big "HEE." to me and to all of my classmates who's into Video.
finally,its the,"what i want to learn" module and ive been waiting for since im 15!!!
god willing we gonna make a bomb out of our class work!!hehe.
to all my classmates," i lebiu all!"
heh.

Digital Media Technology,here we come.
excited it is.nonetheless work work work it all out.

that aside.i thought it was clean cleaned.but it dint.argh!
i thought we could wait for the snow.

i pledge not to analyse further.
au revoir.

2007-04-12T08:02:00.000-07:00

WARNING!!
Upon blog, i shall say and "tak tak tak" teh keyboard in any manner i want.

first of all.school's starting and yes!i hated it as much a old nanny cant eat her peanuts well. *sorry nek.i love yew.nyehehehehehe.
put that aside cuz its nothing new bout..school's starting and someone yada-yada.ing about it.

Aliens-Shooting Star.
Do they exists for real?or are they just another myths of the apek and nyonya sayings?..erk..

lately been questioning to myself about this "doubts of misery" and yeap.no answer.cuz i questioned myself of which i asked myself..and urgh!

Eh.do they exists Not?!damn it uh.

i swear that you dont have to go.i thought we can wait for the fireworks.i thought we can wait for the snow. ?...
endless mode.

if yen can cook.so can yew. heh. =)

i pledge to bid sayornala.heh.
au revoir.

2007-04-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

East Coast Park is where i landed myself today.with friends and family.being the most "hate sports" among all.it was hard on my side to succesfully swim.

waves were so much in anger cuz i feel it thru my extra fats that has moved totally absurd.
frequently i had to hold faizah hand to feel the sense of secure and to keep it intact that actually im in safe hands.thanx faizah cuz i dint die today.heh.i never want or even dream to die drowning.
and yeap.i rather die if a mouse freak me out and i got heart attack.heh.

rathna keeps pinching my butt cuz she could dive in well.while i go screaming like an asshole.

laugh is the usuals basic.due to that, i drank the sea water unwillingly.thanx to my mouth which will never close most of the time.

talk with bird-bird while others do their cycling.as per normal.we shout at each other cuz thats what we usually do.to bird-bird: i think its our tradition to exchange the volume of our voices.
cuz we actually had the "free service of volume adjuster" from one of our friend.we call her moleh.at times.sorry grl.heh.thank you for existence.You make us complete.

balqis is ultimately cute.bazli is ultimately gorgeous.those two are my related-ties.
they came.

i pledge to bid so long.have a nice day.to yew.

au revoir.

2007-04-04T02:43:00.000-07:00

A french song with its own meaning.appreciate it.understand it.

Ne Me Quitte Pas.

i pledge to hold on to this bar thats left.
au revoir

2007-04-03T01:29:00.000-07:00

feel like typing some thoughts out for the day.or issit straightening all the shit out?

but due to the moody clouds and the cold wind,they suggest me to go to sleep as soon as possible before the sun strikes out again.i guess i still can get the chills and the moody cold feeling late at night,so i guess,i shall skip it and do the "straightening thoughts out" for today.

suggest to sue; keep it shut.

this saturday will be nice if everything go on well.a dayout picnic.it sounds fun cuz i think im a deprived childhood kid.i need to build sandcastles so i will feel better again.i hope.heh.sponsor of food will be from my mom.who else.she volunteered.i dint force or asked her to do any chores.so take that as she loves me more.err..heh.

i thought i clean it all up.but i dint.
*shrugs*

i pledge to be forever-willled.
au revoir

2007-03-31T00:26:00.000-07:00

These are the malay madness.
guess it shall kill the moment of feeling shrewed.
and yea.its a show called" AH HA" from malaysian media.
the lead is afdlin shauki and harith.
sucessfully made me smile.i hope same goes to you.
orite.here it goes..

Ah ha-Teaching English

Ah ha-Meminang

These inspires me.
those are all.personally,respect afdlin shauki.a director with different of everything.A asean man with a talent-head.not forgetting yasmin ahmad who produce sepet,gubra and muksin.her shows are well-asean-to-do.Recongnisiton as far as in Berlin.So far these are the best two that caught my attention in the asean scene.

essence left my heart tonight
au revoir

2007-03-30T09:09:00.000-07:00

Wake me up from my deepest sleep.

My Chemical Romance-Disenchanted

i pledge to remain bLank in time of nothing-ness.
essence left my heart tonight
au revoir

2007-03-26T06:57:00.000-07:00

now im learning to realise what is it to understand without asking much.
doubts are everywhere but no one would care.
for every other days seems like a bad day but it sure do has its ways.
for us to kill the sweet pain in our buziest moment,
its like a hyprocrite who doesnt know to lie.

dunt mourn for long
cuz we were meant to live for so much more
and dunt ask
for what has happen without knowing the real reason
time will never stop wanting to play with us
because we wudnt know what happen next second.

everyone will be around us
in time of sadness or madness
the fact living alone is actually true
cuz when it comes to decision
you have to be alone
even though its screwed.

i pledge to understand all out.

essence left my heart tonight.

2007-03-25T20:40:00.000-07:00

thanx for your existence.without it.its as if im in hunger.music has always been a friend.

Matchbook Romance-Promise

essence left my heart tonight.

2007-03-24T21:41:00.000-07:00

the you-tubers.songs being felt.this is how its streaming in.
mode:- everything's okay.

My chemical Romance-Famous Last Words.

Simple Plan- "Dont Wanna Think About You"

My chemical Romance- I Dont Love You.

sinking with music.that's all ive got to do.
essence left my heart tonight.
au revoir

2007-03-24T08:47:00.000-07:00

having the whole holidays with pure lost of pathways,discreet feeling that eats me up inside.they told me to move on.
im aware of that the world still doesnt end with one kid named sue who just end her love story.doing fine?is a lie.but moving on,shall do the line.

to strangers is just another hurt story.
individuals who felt isnt a glory.
they told me they been there.
ya.i know that.
one phrase suits u.
uve been there.im here now.im in recovery anxiety.

things happen.heart separated was felt.nevertheless im moving on strong.the relationship has to end.2 years of us and sweet moments."the bowen with singapore poly.the singpost and awaiting of o level results.the ns and ite."sweet promises break me down.the whole wait and the whole sincerity has to go.and yea.ure the sweetest chinese guy ive been with.

friends had been there.to those whom i confide.thanx friend.malah aka bird bird and penyu.heart u guys.

despite of me standing in a crowd.silent pause dint wake me up.im moving in black grey mode while realising everything is still moving around fast.cars and buses..trains and others.

madness and noises still sound so empty.

it takes forever to forget.memories shall do the play.and sue will find her way.

feeling sad wud just heal all shits.
no mourning cuz no one's dead.
be sick in the brain,do all laughs.
and promised...
all wont be at disarray.

yeap.brains still functioning.open it wide owning new do's.i got upcoming plans.do join me. =)

i pledge to see whats not.au revoir.

im not the only one with such stories.we made up of different identity.typical such history.im leaving.
essence left my heart tonight.

2007-03-07T03:37:00.000-08:00

under the dark light,i vowed not to mourn nor weep.
under the evening light,i vowed not to hear nor see.
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave.

few days back.im having my whole fun time with penyu.who else.
i did no harm to society nor people.i plainly laugh and ignore all humans from my sight.owing no debts or space with these basic existence of strangers,they simply loves "fault."
sarcastic remarks was dumb on their side.critisicm you send me reflects yourself more.

its really like stoopid idiots,where people envy the way im having my fun time with friends.be it with penyu.or with malah and gang.or with anyone im with.basic strangers,dunt be a pest.should i have the power of "fork"(i mean the fork u use to eat ur noodles),i would have use that to dig ur eyes,brains and everything part of you,strangers.

and plz.stop giving me that look.ure not one of us.
damn society.beats the citizens.

to all people.be direct and stop beating aroud the bush.
picking up faults is your hobby.u cant recruit me as one of the members cuz im no kid.ouh plz.buzz off.

i pledge to hope,whats not.

this entry is in angry mode.so yeap..doodles.. -.-

au revoir

2007-03-03T08:36:00.000-08:00

im going to write a poetry
for the public and society
how much you people are being irritating
and smell soo disgusting.

i pledge to apologise for knowing you.

au revoir.

2007-02-28T04:04:00.000-08:00

i dreamt about him.pure missing feeling.pure madness.
*sue walks away..

never us.always them. -.-

orite.so yeap.days been cold.days been nothing but just okay.
mm things happening,shall not elaborate.
i would not entertain as long; they are happy,im nuts.
err..k!! crap la sue..

we found us eventually
we picked it up
we throw it once again
we knew of us
we had that choice
we shattered it once again.

i pledge to remain numb.it happen each time.

....................................................
this is wat we always do.

au revoir.

2007-02-22T07:42:00.000-08:00

So why shud i take your hand,when you cant promise happy endings?.....

now its february..soon its september.yea..its been quite a while and sometimes i think moving on is just it.and counting the days for the answers isnt easy.its like the brain is pumping at its best.. while the heart is dying?..even if its after time,urgh!! sue....

orite.emo shits for a few tick tock of my time..
i pledge not to further up our ties.

au revoir

2007-02-21T03:27:00.000-08:00

gheez.
been quite some time that sue dint blog...kekeke.
reason was because sue shucks?.nyahahaahah.orite orite.its just the normal lines comes out from my mouth if i see whoever comes around me or the any victims in class and i wud use it to kill boredom straight right in the head.ehehehehe.

the past days was like any other days uh.i eat i sleep i sing i dream i write i disturb and not to forget..i drink.heh
i mean..those are the things i do to complete my gifted day.so yeap...
it sounds boring to some people.but it sure do fun to me.nyahahahaha.i mean that's a basic luxury for me to do that in a day besides other luxuries uh..and if you people owning a normal brain dunt understand what im trying to say,just forget it luhs eh.i dunt bother especially to RAKET.nyahahahhaha.cuz she always says that im weird..so well ..ket diam arhhhh!!!!!

izah is sick again todae.i think she is just too underweight.you can always have "the extra's" of mine.akekekeke
its for ur own good arh..and for my own good too wot...im crapping!!!arghhhh.

and i feel like spending my time.walking..........talking...slacking together again.About anything.I miss those days.i really do.

hepi lunar new year.and im sure he had eaten loads of pork chops.so..it reminded me.yea.
i pledge to ask of them to tell our secret to the sky above all clouds. =)

au revoir

2007-02-13T03:19:00.000-08:00

im still in searching and finding where could this sweet song is.i keep on trying..uhm ya.for the time being.

the lyrics.

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority, Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

i pledge to know ure there.
au revoir

2007-02-09T07:44:00.000-08:00

in the absence..
i know..
ure no longer there.

im not in the right frame of mind.
disturbed and actually...in fact.. soon eventually bonkers.

none will be replaced
for each memories carved.

...i feel sick.totalie sick.all feel shall be tarnished.let me run till the sun burst to its particles and till the stars decide to take its place.allow me to walk on my own pace at my sweeteest time. Until the clock stops,i'd keep on questioning.Nothing can be changed,cuz it has start right from the beginning.brain exhausted like a pipe giving out its darn fuels..till when..till then..
when will this end?

but will it end or it will never be...for the answer isnt with me.

i pledge to bid goodbye and we shall take our own sweet time.

au revoir

2007-02-05T08:46:00.000-08:00

yeaph. listening No Use For A Name-Friends of the Enemy.like it.love it.

what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why
theheart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind

nice chorus.meaningful one.......

And ..things makes me think..only den i'd write..or type?..heh..wat only sue..yeap.here goes..

title:- Us.

you told me the truth
of what condition ure in
and im sorry that all this while..
i wasnt there to have help you
with all these complicated things

if only i wud be much more a serious person
u wud have told me earlier
i wud have help and understand u much better
i dunno the reason
that im scared but i cared
im prepared and to get things shared

i see that misery in you
i see that pain in you
i see that ure scared too.

to you and to you
its not the absolutely
yes i noe

despite the jokes and closest time
somehow somewhere i felt a blow
a friend who is in confusion
yet i dint know.

its lil things keeps me thinking
i hope to you and to you wont go on sinking
as a fren to a fren
just wish to you and to you amend
i wont leave you alone.
a promise,forever will.

completed 12:36am
6th feb 2007
amj
sue.

just be strong orite.
i pledge to sing out loud while this throat hurts.

au revoir

2007-02-04T07:47:00.000-08:00

weekends.penyu drag me and was forced to wake up as early as 7.15am on a Saturday!..according to trusted resources and yea,there's this vacancy job at joo chiat rd.and i was like,"Hotel 81?!"..and according to the direction given..its at Astro hotel..buT then again..wrong infomation and seriously i dunno where it ended us and that makes me walk kilometres that far..about...uhm... 100000000km!. that shud explain how tired am i on a saturday morning! thanx raket.grrrr.and went over to sembawang..have to meet malah for my photoshop software.im so forgetful not to ask her on friday itself.
stoopid me.

head to amk ..thought of buying shoes since my mom give me the money to buy new one..but no size..so to spore shoe center,buzz off!..grrrrrrrr.went back home.raket and Berm slack at my house and..yeap.we strum strum all the way.everythings need a start..

sunday.bik liza and her family came over.i showed paman bat my mp3..and i hope that he would be jealous since he is fanatics bout gadgets.....but he turn out saying..there's better one.chet.regret.haha. bazli had a bogey tooth.haha.and i told him he wud never get his tooth back..and all he did was continure playing computer game,cuz he wudnt be bother by my crap.haha.he is p5 mind you.he got brains.i forgot.lol. and balqis is growing so much much bigger.soo cute.she say bye kakak!!! uwah...after so long..can chill with balqis.ure soo cute darling.ekekekekeke.and yeap bik liza was tired and sick.poor my bibik.hope u get well soon.

i had a dream.
for a moment,it felt so real.
and i wish i wudnt wake up to face wats not
ure just special.

i pledge to understand and not asking.
au revoir

2007-01-31T07:16:00.000-08:00

days?..harsh.
weather? been cold..
time? been catching up with me..
pain? the usuals..
people? they're leaving.

i pledge not to question
au revoir

2007-01-30T18:29:00.000-08:00

the blog procedure has change.and yeap i was like trying for 3 consecutive days to blog and i cant.but anything uh..nothing intresting also wot eh. ahakz..

i pledge to remain in hunger till my recess is coming!!!
gege.

au revoir

2007-01-26T18:30:00.000-08:00

okay i just wanna warn you that uhm..... ...

by reading this post in my blog todae...

or any other sweet day....

will just.......

makes you................

Nothing.

i pledge to watch the rain till it stops questioning.

au revoir

2007-01-24T05:06:00.000-08:00

haha.
yeap....
it was a nice day...yay!!!!

despite being stressed over the assignments that are not much but yet urgh..it was a nice nice day.

main focus: went to MALAH house luhs.nyahahahahahahaa.
madness shit.
her mom cook us nice food again and again.and bought us
coka-kola.eheee.thankew makcik!!barney loves
yew..

we went malah house to complete or CMS project shits.haha.cant stop thinking of it.

made a poetry ..dunno when..but recent.two days ago...i guess.

Hatred

yew make it grew
as if yew knew
that im soo much in pain
without any gain

the voice of yew makes me puke
and sometimes i wished yew mute
the sight of yew makes me irritated
and sometimes i wished yew get ACID-ed.

its no wonder
people look at yew
and simple say
I HATE YOU!!!!

yeap.this poetry to some kids who have this nenek looks and the gang.cheapface kids.well..i dunno.i dunt judge.Buzz off you ugly.

-amj

i pledge not to question till its time stated.

sue miss you. -.-
au revoir.

2007-01-21T08:03:00.000-08:00

weekends were mad.everybody is.now ..actually i forgot wat i did over the weekends.but obviouslt went to magic wok and we waited the food for like decade that i manage to take my nap there.grrrrrrr.

just now berm cudnt make it to vivo with that penyu.so i have to accompany the penyu.orite orite.wat frens are for..i noe that raket!!!!
well she did blanja me ..ouh well.u noe i lup u for that.kinky....uikz...
so we walk..and walk..and walk when we finally sit and slack talking shits.i saw ...MAGIC!!!!!.kk madness...i saw syafiq the bridge leader person..den i was walking towards the HMV and there's this someone pad me on my side..and i was like..who sia..and..ya..my PE teacher.hur hur hur..i met fir fren.

ouh...wat only sue..
haha

.....i pledge to count the days to next yr .

btw..my mom rocks.seriusly.

au revoir

2007-01-19T07:19:00.000-08:00

morning was harsh.things were simply wasnt in its place.everything was wrong and im to blame.and yeap.it has always been a jinx uh.always been.its as if,im the only kid that is full of problem,she said.words were not being said accurately,how cud it be?you are giving me a head to toe lecturing and you do it wrongly.its wrong.i admit wherever my mistakes is.but u dunt.u ignore ur wrong doings.ur arrogant more than i am.just becoz ure that and im this.so that makes me nothing?..and you said..not everyone will like the way i am.isnt it the obvious?.i dunt live to please people.i dunt live to let others restrict me from doing anything.im not someone living to be someone else.and i wont be someone you want me to be.you make feel as if im leading my friends to the bad side of the attitude in here?..well.lets put it all aside.mayb you dunt understand wats friendship is all about.and mayb ur joke is like.."knock knock,who's there" kinda thingy.well we are in different time yea.i dunt blame you.

i know i dun know it well either.but this is common sense.im not self-centred like you.and im not selfish like you.and im not.my friends are not either.ONLY YOU,i guess...pity.

it wasnt a horrible day tho.went home and sleep till 6pm.and i was like shocked,"OUH SHARK!"haha.yeap.promised to watch him perform at esplanade.their songs nice.Lonely me,he sang.wow!!gege.may u guys make it big someday.orite.

and yeap.met fatein and we were like..mad.long time no see and that makes us even excited.haha.with the stories and the blaberring luhs.den came along izah,aisha and hidaya.haha.that plus the madness.especially that idiot,izah.haha.the others was there too.

end the day with john little.nyahahahaahahah.malah said that uh!!!!
actuali its long john..ahakz.

malah was like standing beside me and was like,"sue..jonh little combo 1 how much?"..and i was like,"uh?.."..and she like repeat her sentence with confident hell shit asking,"john little combo 1 how much la?"..and we laughed.nyahahahahaha.kk.she's funny.thanx for that.gege

i pledge to plainly look.and just look away.

hate me todae.
hate me tomorrow.
hate me for the things i dint do.

au revoir.

2007-01-17T07:42:00.000-08:00

yeap.dint update so here i will go yada yada..

13 january my mom grow a year older.it was her birthday.hepi birthday mak.lup u.on her birthday she bought me an mp3..i paid half and she paid half.thanx.people who are close to me will understand how i feel owning a mp3.i mean its not about having the advance tech thingy..its how i want it badly so i can listen to music till rot.i love u mp3.i really do.eheeeeee.so next yr 13 januari 2008 will be my anniversary with my mp3.aww.so i like!!!..eheh.

i appreciate.

18januari will be my dear bibik liza.hepi birthday my bik liza.wish u succes in ur canteen.and im sure u will be successful..rich enuff to get me slimming pills.ahakz..and bazli balqis will be the most happening kids ard on earth.trust me.ehee.happy BIRDae!!!

few days back been like doing assignments in sch.uh sick of the same old thing.but ouh well,to a large extent im enjoying MFD classes.haha.

friends been havoc idiots.they have been hell.and i appreciate it.they are madness!!!

and yeap.not forgetting,in sch there's this nenek and cheapface existing.not forgetting the group of "she tinks she's the one and only"... i dunt understand the grudge.ouh well,tell u wat bitches,do keep looking at me.i love the attention.i love the stare.i have wat u dunt.no doubt thats the reason y u keep looking at me.envy me well dearie,cuz ur face CHEAP!

i pledge not to understand.

au revoir.

2007-01-04T04:15:00.000-08:00

i told myself its mystery.
i wish it never be my past
.........
wat did u do of a day of yesterday
'u stated its partially-over.
but i treat it as game over.
ure in memories.
''im having these dreams.
issit the end.
or mayb just a start to all my hints.'

pure hell.

its like when ur mind is disturbed,then its ding dong beh ok.
and when ur heart is lost,then its ting tong siaw ok.
but when ur mind and heart losts its touch then its time u eat ondeh-ondeh with full of gula melaka plus the coconut topping ok!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.darn.
missingyew.

partially im confuse.
but.forget that......put that aside..i miss ondeh-ondeh.
"mak,buy me some plz"
"you know how many times ive asked you if we could make ondeh-ondeh together"......

and all u reply me was........
," aku malas arh nak layan kau!!!!!"

urgh.

nyahahahahaahhaahaha.
no kidding.thats wat she replied me.
expected that of her cuz i tink she's tired entertaining me with stoopid ideas of mine.

ouh yeap.now bibik liza is working oreadi.becoming her own boss.she become makcik kantin!! yay. better off that way.her own own buisiness.my mom works with her.haha.but my mom work for my bibik.but mak...since uve worked..wats ondeh-ondeh to u rite?..belikan uh!!!!...grrrrr..and yeap..im happy for bibik liza.she got her own canteen finally after so much hassle she's been thru.im pretty sure u are so gonna have ur own van and a restaurant one day.insyallah.

wat else..
uhm..tu je uh.
i pledge to buy ondeh-ondeh on my own uh!!!!!!!
au revoir

2007-01-01T05:48:00.000-08:00

sometimes people are just surprised to have walked pass a big cute(gheez) human being ..but im just not surprised how ugly they look like.ouh well,im not gonna blabber bout this,cuz its wasting my efforts in the brain.

went out.played pool.madness.cuz i wasnt a pro and things get in its idiot ways.haha.thanx raket,sometimes in life,u need an idiotic fren to let u die laughing.watched horror movie.nyahahahah.scaried uh.first time in my life i dint shout!!haha.wow!!and there's these cina man keep kicking my chair.but ou well,guess he is cold in the movie la.so anything uh eh.my slipper torn off halfway and raket was on the phone bout bola,and i was so helpless..keep like,"raket!!!i cant walk!!my slipper" and she being the idiotic one keep talking on the phone.haha.but well,thanx also uh for picking and throwing the slipper.nyahahahha.

now is 2007.honestly,im looking forward to 2008.cuz by then,i have the answer to my misery and idiot pain.
to my dear 2007,i hope things wud go much faster this time ok?..yup..thanx.

i pledge to vow without making promises.
its contradicting.
yup.
thats how everything is being planned.
au revoir.

2006-12-31T09:19:00.000-08:00

i got to say this.really.."how time really flies"..ehee...its like just yesterday it has end..well yea..still have like 1yr more plus to have my question to be answered tho.well,yada yada..time will do us even someday.urgh sue!!! kk..sheesh orite..

so ya.everybody knows 2006 has come to an end uh.how fast it is,we shall not questioned..its just that,it has to be that way? i guess?....ya before im gonna type all shiats..had real darn time with berm and raket.haha.never have slacked at esplanade that long hours.noon till nite slack there.under hot sun..shift places..got drinks..ice cream..i mean..we've got like nothing better to do.i mean as always..the usuals..haha

back back to how this yr has ended.i have to say something somewhere..cuz this yr i made friends definitely..cuz its like this yr den i enter ite.its my choice~~darn.nyahaahah..then thats where 2006 came about to be meaningful despite all idiot shits happening.met malah and the gang.haha.rat,izah and aisyah ultimately is the fun cliques ever.haha.i mean there's no split up,no nuthing.everythings ok and that makes us simple to live with.nyahahahahaah.so to dearie mole,i miss u aisyah!!!nyahahahaahah.i mean i miss ur moleh.gege..ouh well..uhm yeap this is a year also that has made and being carved to something special but sick one.argh.ouh well..chinese new year man!!serius uh..miss yew hell notes never drift me apart..lets not talk about that..next yr resolution..nah.put it aside.no resolutions anymore cuz,firstly i wont keep to my own resolutions and secondly i wont want to feel tied down.so no more sue!!!no more lies to urself ok?!!!!!heh..i'll just do the planning as i move on..that be much better..and to those who sells organizer and need one..dunt waste ur money on those organizer shiats..cuz i hate having one!! and it s a big problem to me if ure having one organizer cuz ure wasting ur money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nyahhahahaahha.kk.i love to crap.its the most relaxing exercise for the minds.lol.and yea..my sis snoring like an idiot!arghhhhhh.kakak!!!!haha.ouh ya..she gave me 20 bucks.her real first pay!!!she's a working lady now .yay!!!!how great.i mean..yay!!!thankew.for this part....i love u many chicken uh..haha.

i dream of arwah mr hasyim.hope ure doing fine there orite...

and yea.saddam hussein was killed by a babboon..ouh well,things always happen that way,sorrows felt justice shall prevail.so long saddam...

there's loads of things to write..but forget that.shall just not be written.

one question for my new year
no more resolutions
no more empty promises
if things were to be sweet late past
in such a condition of pure pain
why one has to go
and leave someone in misery.............

i pledge not indire of u.au revoir.i'd try.
im not missing yew.

2006-12-19T03:57:00.000-08:00

sue wants to give her speech.so let us welcome our sue..gheez...here goes...yada yada....knowing someone..starting of my laughter with anyone....conversation..shorts ones..idiot ones....once a friend always a friend..its never been about i spent my time with people around me,its how we people go about and laugh till jaw drops..its the communication among us..brutal yet emotional thingy,its like even tho,frankly among people around me,my frens,we talk brutally but deep..inside deep deep its so sweet,u see?nah...i guess i just understand it on my own..if only there isnt memories for us to lean on back,i guess we wudnt be like be so emotinally attached ..i mean..urghhhhh..sometimes wen i teased a friend..or mayb jokes till make a lil among us "hot"..its normal la uh..i mean its to let us understand even further uh..i dunno uh.dunt complicate this simple ways uh sue...

well yeap.lets talk about yesterday's day.was real okey.haha.dint wanna talk about in the day..cuz its a norma,haha.let us talk about wat happen at nite.gege...mm..met up jannah and raket has to tag along.haha.there was this Passione and Muziqfest Concert going on.the Symphonic band.its been real long since i actually hold my tuba.grrr.missed him so much.aww.haha..i mean..watching the band playing was so just "feel like crying" ..the two instructors were malay and..it just strikes me bout our late mr Hasyim.damn.i just missed him so.I mean sometimes..wen we tend forgetting bout him,there bound to be some things to let him appear in our hearts again..I miss the marching moment where he wud shout and say,"eh makcik after move forward two,move how many steps?"..and i wud always go blur.heh..and yea..there's this incident where it was a opening sch ceremony..and..it was a practice.it was bright sunny day luhs..and we performed to practice..and i fall!! since i wasnt familiar with the gimmicks then i fell..and late mr hasyim was like telling the principal,"nah she's clumsy"..haha.i got to noe this from him also..he told me that..den..during lunch time he called me up..he asked me why i fall?..and all i answered..,"the floor was wet." with a smile.hur hur hur.a lie.it wasnt raining at all uh..he knew it..heh..he has never looked down on anyone of us...last perfomance was chingay...the very tiring moment ever...and he made us perform all way hell..but it was enjoying uh...chingay brought many memories..2 weeks before we wanted to perform the real chingay day..he passed away...and mr said led us..one of our late mr hasyims frens..its just so tearing up one's heart uh...its not emotional or ...its just...well its ok...2004 we performed chingay..this time round wasnt with him..its with the alumni..we played "I will survive" song..that was it.a memorable one.final one.gimmicks,steps..and yea the music was a blast.we end it good.thanx alumni..and he has been special one since.A sincere instructor.

Its my life music was his final piece with us,mind me if im mistaken..lyrics tallies and its just too -.- .

urgh i hated feeling this way.shudnt have but grrrr.ouh well.

applied for motorola thingy.first of all,I QUIT.haha.gd bye darn factory.security guard was picking on me.i mean wats wrong with u,my dear mama?..urgh!!! hitam buat hal itam arh pakcik.grrr..and yea,the aunties there was noisy.very noisy.worst then malah voice for hell sake uh!!!!that doesnt matter.im not petty wen it comes to aunties being noisy.they were like illeterate.no critisicm but who cares uh.its like

In a Motorola Factory
SUE:- (tab on the shoulder)
Auntie:-No reaction
Sue:- Aunty,now do wat eh?
Auntie:- No reply
Sue:- ( Takes her initiative and do the packing on her own)
Auntie;- EH gerl,come here (2 times.)
sue does her work....den the aunty came again and tell me this ,"gerl before u throw the box arh see if there is still handphone left,dunt throw the boxes anyhow."I mean,who wud be so stooopid and being an idiot throw hp without taking it?I mean i noe its just a gentle reminder..but if they ..i mean those aunties starts my day off with such ,"no brain attitude"..den to my dear "dat" aunty..buzz off orite?!NOW!!!nyahahaahah.neways i quitted.since im cheated..ure cheated too aunty..cuz u believe me that i say wanna go toilet..but instead i ran off.nyahaahahaha.

kk Sue is being rude.as always.but this time round.its really really not my wanting of being rude.seriusly.and not gaining any votes in here..but ouh well..u got CHEATED BY ME U STOOPID AUNTY!!!! grrrrr.

neways im sorry.i had my ego too aunty.haha.this will never end...

visit hougang point.how much things have change.no more the old kakis anymore.well gdbye to my old days in hougang point.studied there..but that was for raket,gerry and the others..slack days were for me there..yea...its deeefeeeereeennntt now.heh.i miss u old hougang-pies.eheheh

a long entry.cuz too many things happen in one go.like a film losts its control.and all being played in a fast speedy remote control.Remote control?kpala otak ..haha.i mean lost its balance?uh ..anything uh.

as much as i miss those old days.they'd be memories.in my heart always.and to u i bid gdbye.
i pledge saying "missed you" till time do us even.
au revoir.

2006-12-11T23:11:00.000-08:00

sitting in a class of duo.malah has to do her stuff in another class.where ol of our frens is in another class.which actuali can do the work in our class.k malah.thankew eh.haha.school's gonna end soon.darn.means holidays..wen come back to sch..comes big exam.darn..madness.it be a bonkers disastrous world for sue..if exams coming.

tuning to one of nsync songs.haha.Gone..yea..

Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...

............

2006-12-10T17:49:00.000-08:00

dint believe monday had its blues..cuz it seems more red..im crapping in the morning cuz nothing reali matter more of any words said....today its like so seway luh...was back home at nite..tired..sleepy..cik ros came..so talk to her for 30 mins..cuz i miss her so..so had better spent my time with her before there will be no chance of us talking again...was so squeezy on the bed..had to squeeze sleeping with mom and sis.things dunt seem much brighter..they keep on fighting..it shall be history.memories.nah..let it be.im fine.wen two heads clashed,they dunt tally no more...things at home are rotting.no complaining.its written.i'll see wat happens..help wat i can..listen wats said,shout when wanted..talk when needed...cry wen hurt..smile wen i should..it'd be simple... i wudnt want to complicate things cuz its nothing to be saved.

yesterday was my last day work at expo.finally.gonna miss people there.escpecially the malay community there.they are one idiot bunch.thanx people.to marshall and darling.haha.u rawk my head totalie.its like im giving a winning award statement uh.wat only sue...gonna miss em.well its okay.its normal to have felt that way...a "yay" to my success of working there.applied for a packer ..ended up being a cashier for all days.thanx for that lil cheated lie.somehow rather i feel ..cheated.haha.well.its ok.thanx.

so wat else shall be written in this blog that doesnt seem helping.i feel the world's empty.left people deceiving.lets just receive those deceit shit.

i pledge to .......au revoir

2006-12-07T16:50:00.000-08:00

sleepy as it is.i made for the bed....heh.

counting down the days towards madness upcoming days.haha.3 more days to go.for the work contract.haha.finally.gonna miss the people uh..the rockstar..the bar..the ben..the ali..the farhan...the aisyah..the kak lin..the kak sue..the kak aida..haha.darn..they gonna be missed.haha.wth....and..to jackson and that mamat melaka,buzz off uh aite.the rows of cashiers and packers will be gone from my sight.hur hur hur.yesterday was a war wingy day uh.the fite in tamp was like.."wat only"..lil things was burst like a balloon luhs..idiots uh..den staff room..the security guard was like hugging this ladie..and i was like..apa dia buat nih?haha...i come closer uh..sue does nothing but being an irritating kpo-rians of one citizen..wat only sue..den this ladie were like saying,"i will make myself suffer.."yada yada..i tink her dad passed away..haha.todae im soo gonna asked the guard uh.kk..diam je la sue.bluerghs..im counting down again.6 months passed.so its like 1 yr4months?haha..darn.apa apa la eh sue...i pledge to do wat things that i missed.au revoir.

2006-12-03T17:57:00.000-08:00

late nites been bluergh.feel dead now and then.legs aching like a heart never stops its thumping and pumping of bloods to everywhere luhs.urgh.im crapping again.its been tiring uh the work.but guess have to endure cuz time isnt that long either.so sue,diam je plz.heh...my mom is sick.her eyes is tembel...it means swollen...and her cheeks or pipi is bengkak.i told my mom that,"eh mak ur pipi bengkak uh"..and she replied me..,"tak ni tembam"..and she laughed.k.thanx for the joke uh mak.haha.she never been to her kedai for time being.i wonder how kak ayi been coping.sure lonely.aiyaa.dunno luhs..6 more days to hooray.and gonna have fun with "teh bunny moleh " gang.haha.gonna wait for that day.cant wait cuz mals mother will be cooking good delicious delicacy marvellous food arh.darn.urghhh...its been so long oreadi im not running thru the updates of indo latest music..the movies!!!..and the food of coz.darn..must go ESTELER 77 soon.ket accompany plz.thankew.i wanna eat my baksoh .i mean original baksoh!!!!gonna go sungei road for sure.darn.cepat uh.nak pegi sungei road..urgh...one more thing.my sis got a job.sometimes she just cant stop talking or get excited over lil things..i dunno y.but nvm.well.here goes..i pledge to do nothing till "the even" cames back.au revoir.

2006-11-30T18:50:00.000-08:00

madness.work was nice but hell disastrous.que was long .none cares.forget it.i just want to blog that..it wasnt yet a mistery.wait till it comes and it never ends.i pledge to rot till my blood burst.au revoir

2006-11-29T04:22:00.000-08:00

orite.raket called me up just few seconds ago.darn,she got cashier la uh..and now im bluerghhh..wat the hell.im so lazee to start working la.there will be more shiats to come ..sue!!!!nak mati luhs..sueee!!..ouh ya..i want go muse la..oeiii.forget it.wait till i got one bunch of makciks to follow me.just u wait fort canning!!!!!.is that how u spell fort canning?..uikz..kk..i failed my spelling when i was a kid..so..u noe i noe la uh.....haha...
im gonna smile..cuz tomorow will be worst.haha..im gonna crash my head up cuz tomorow might be shiats.lol.ouh well.watsoeveranything gonna happen,its just a misery to one end.so just look at them and show ur penyu face.yay!!.haha...nvm.
had some thoughts early in the morning just now before coming school.thoughts that can brings u high fever with mad cow disease.so trust me.if u people wanna do some "ownself suicidal" just think and u may proceed to die from there.trust me.haha..kk.im kidding!!! sue is kiddding!!!!..nak pegi muse!!!urgh.okok.i pledge to eat muachi till end of my tenth expo day.au revoir

2006-11-27T18:29:00.000-08:00

decades of banana durian dint update.muanyaahahahahaa.kk ..thats a lie....orite2..ive been up to school..poetries music and nothing else.nyhahahahahha.i be on work on this thurs.darn.feeling cincau boredom and nervous coz its so leceh uh the work.it had never been better if it comes to the first day of work.i need money.who doesnt?.so sue..diam je plz.according to mals and jas..there is muse concert coming up.so to raket and all my idiotic frens,save up money.we have a concert .europe concert!!!!oei im excited laaa.oei..oeiii!!!nyaahahahaha.i will go muse concert no matter how much bomb it costs me luhs..gegegeeg.i heard its on 16 januari..so..yeap.thats it.im booked on 16.wth..orite2...pass few weeks i tink..mals give me two line poetry to continue it..so i eventually got to finish it off.haha.i like..next ting is to get all my shoes,bags in stocks..lol.wait for the money,and the party starts streaming in.gegegegeg. den the birthday party among rat,mals and izah.wuahahaha.cepat arh korang decide mana mau pegi!!!darn...things at home are cooler oreadi...even tho inside has been hell to go thru the somethings which is something personal and have to go..mati mati have to just go thru.i have been fine.ehee.nothing matters more than ...yada yada..as much as i dint want it to end....ouh my pledge...i pledge to eat muachi till my mouth give its final bite.lol..au revoir

2006-11-21T16:56:00.000-08:00

last weekends was like tired.did the walking..and walks..the walkeh.heh.i saw rudy at esplanade last fri.he is still alive about percussion and those mly thingy.well okeh.things at home getting peace and ok luhs.hope the cold war end soon between parties...jannah held her birthday party over at her house..finally i meet her mom.haha.so it was a kecoh thingy.met her bro.haha hensem kids .first he called me geemuk.den he call me cute.den he call me lili.and last one kak lili.thanx to jannah i got those names.i dunt mind.i ate like nuts there...chicken wings..the mee's..the cakes..madness.we're full.went to the orientation job.tomorow another training.urgh.im lazee uh.y cant we just start working at expo.grrr.neways..my mom got con.haha.i laugh not cuz im bad..its just like..hey my mom got con..well mom..u learn some things tho.haha.ok.nothing much.till pain do all us even.i pledge to wait till time do us together.au revooir

2006-11-12T17:47:00.000-08:00

weekends was tiring hell cuz i walk.lol.i mean its tiring uh walk walk ..pain u noe the leg.makcik betul uh.haha,get to watch the grudge.nyahahaah.scarie till my eyeballs can turn 234 degrees only.haha.k.im lying.mm..before that.the happiest day of my life.i got dat job!!.nyahaahha.expo it is.john little.here we come accesing to do our service with a smile.aww.haha..ouh ya..i met dijas at esplanade that fri nite.haha.he was wearing this bunga baju uh..with krenteng hair.haha.and it was him!!..god ouh heaven.small werld.but dint tegur him cuz wasnt sure enuff tho...been so long and that somebody was so hungry since i drag her to accompany me to tamp to get that cheap thumbdrive.haha.err novem thanx for giving me the membership card..and thanx penyu for ikut-ing me to tamp..malah mom cook mee for us.was so ultimately nice superb marvellio uh.i wanna thanx malah mother for cooking for us before she leaves to geylang.thats wat malah say.malah bilang mak kau,"she rocks my taste buds"lol...mmso it was sembawang to amk..drop..to tamp..to bugis.wat in a world.orite.err.lazy oreadi.
i pledge to see them while sleeping.au revoir .

2006-11-05T17:40:00.000-08:00

updates from the gendut champ.hur hur..mm..last sat went to hidayah's house.madness..i was like unsure bout where her house is..and i called her..i asked turn left or rite..and all she answered me was..turn wherever u like..and darn..i got to find the house myself with faizah.she told me her house got those raya lighting and the ketupats hanging on..and there'a a lot la..grr..and i go shouting..selamat hari raya..assalamualaikum..all wrong houses and i just go on walking and smile away..went in her house..asking her mom..if my butterfly baju was nice..haha.so tak malu.mcm nak sepak je ni sue.haha..den the mother cook mee soto..mee putih and all..and i ate two plate of mee putih.nice cik.i love u.haha..and the best part was..hidayah gave me ten bucks for the green packets.haha.and i bet raket is jealous cuz she went to a few houses and she got 12 bucks..and i go to one cute house i got 10 bucks..luxurious gendut champ.haha..then came this family..got this lil kid name haikal.haha.so cute..i feel like pinching him..but ouh well..too lazy to even move.hahah...
.....followed by a normal sundae..woke up without my mom and my sis in the weekends.feels boredom sometimes..haha..
den..i wait for the msg if its was confirmed to went out to piqa birthday.haha.3 y r old kid and i get real excited..and the birthday cake was a barney cake.haha.it was the nicest party ever.in a small cosy house.haha..met faizah bro after so long..and piqa and aqif..they grown tall..haha.cute uh.bway tahan at times...i ate losts of food ...two pieces of cakes makes me die.and long time no see faizah mom..and her dad.miss them.miss the moments tho.haha.ouh well..sue shaddap.
....
i got this heart pain and it aches like mad.its so tiring.i feel like pulling this heart and lungs so i wont feel any pain.and i got this strange feeling that it wont go away.bad feeling.urgh.forget it.
im not settled down yet.uneasy,name it.anything.urghhhh...
i pledge to keep quiet till time do me good.

2006-10-29T17:47:00.000-08:00

pc shuts down.
the fite starts again.as usual.in the middle of the nite.disturb my brain mind and everything that exists on this brain.
it the biggest shiats.my mom keep put her anger on me..at times.i can see that.we are equalie stress la mak.so cant u hold back a lil.lately she's been like having this disease..which like..whenever she is with me ..chilling together..she will just mumble bout bapak.bout its gonna end soon..yada yada..
im not a pathetic kid which broods over this stuff,just a lil i need some time to settle down with this war happenings.heart tremblings..
it goes on and on and ouh well.anything uh people.
two people no longer makes one family.we're breaking and so it goes dum dee dee dum.
i pledge to sit with my cheesecakes.
au revoir al deteas.

2006-10-24T20:57:00.000-07:00

undying feeling
i'd wish it go..

its painful
im a dead person while alive

they keep on fighting.im so tired of them.everything's distraughted.i'd wish i can take my leave and go.my brain is noisy.my heart is pumping hell.and their mouth keep fighting.i tink its just the ending.to mom and dad-can u just keep quiet?
au revoir