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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

i dreamt about him.pure missing feeling.pure madness.
*sue walks away..

never us.always them. -.-

orite.so yeap.days been cold.days been nothing but just okay.
mm things happening,shall not elaborate.
i would not entertain as long; they are happy,im nuts.
err..k!! crap la sue..

we found us eventually
we picked it up
we throw it once again
we knew of us
we had that choice
we shattered it once again.

i pledge to remain numb.it happen each time.

....................................................
this is wat we always do.

au revoir.

suhaili @ Wednesday, February 28, 2007 | comment link here

Thursday, February 22, 2007

So why shud i take your hand,when you cant promise happy endings?.....

now its february..soon its september.yea..its been quite a while and sometimes i think moving on is just it.and counting the days for the answers isnt easy.its like the brain is pumping at its best.. while the heart is dying?..even if its after time,urgh!! sue....

orite.emo shits for a few tick tock of my time..
i pledge not to further up our ties.

au revoir

suhaili @ Thursday, February 22, 2007 | comment link here

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

gheez.
been quite some time that sue dint blog...kekeke.
reason was because sue shucks?.nyahahaahah.orite orite.its just the normal lines comes out from my mouth if i see whoever comes around me or the any victims in class and i wud use it to kill boredom straight right in the head.ehehehehe.

the past days was like any other days uh.i eat i sleep i sing i dream i write i disturb and not to forget..i drink.heh
i mean..those are the things i do to complete my gifted day.so yeap...
it sounds boring to some people.but it sure do fun to me.nyahahahaha.i mean that's a basic luxury for me to do that in a day besides other luxuries uh..and if you people owning a normal brain dunt understand what im trying to say,just forget it luhs eh.i dunt bother especially to RAKET.nyahahahhaha.cuz she always says that im weird..so well ..ket diam arhhhh!!!!!

izah is sick again todae.i think she is just too underweight.you can always have "the extra's" of mine.akekekeke
its for ur own good arh..and for my own good too wot...im crapping!!!arghhhh.

and i feel like spending my time.walking..........talking...slacking together again.About anything.I miss those days.i really do.

hepi lunar new year.and im sure he had eaten loads of pork chops.so..it reminded me.yea.
i pledge to ask of them to tell our secret to the sky above all clouds. =)

au revoir

suhaili @ Wednesday, February 21, 2007 | comment link here

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

im still in searching and finding where could this sweet song is.i keep on trying..uhm ya.for the time being.

the lyrics.

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority, Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

i pledge to know ure there.
au revoir

suhaili @ Tuesday, February 13, 2007 | comment link here

Friday, February 09, 2007

in the absence..
i know..
ure no longer there.

im not in the right frame of mind.
disturbed and actually...in fact.. soon eventually bonkers.

none will be replaced
for each memories carved.

...i feel sick.totalie sick.all feel shall be tarnished.let me run till the sun burst to its particles and till the stars decide to take its place.allow me to walk on my own pace at my sweeteest time. Until the clock stops,i'd keep on questioning.Nothing can be changed,cuz it has start right from the beginning.brain exhausted like a pipe giving out its darn fuels..till when..till then..
when will this end?

but will it end or it will never be...for the answer isnt with me.

i pledge to bid goodbye and we shall take our own sweet time.

au revoir

suhaili @ Friday, February 09, 2007 | comment link here

Monday, February 05, 2007

yeaph. listening No Use For A Name-Friends of the Enemy.like it.love it.

what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why
theheart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind

nice chorus.meaningful one.......

And ..things makes me think..only den i'd write..or type?..heh..wat only sue..yeap.here goes..

title:- Us.

you told me the truth
of what condition ure in
and im sorry that all this while..
i wasnt there to have help you
with all these complicated things

if only i wud be much more a serious person
u wud have told me earlier
i wud have help and understand u much better
i dunno the reason
that im scared but i cared
im prepared and to get things shared

i see that misery in you
i see that pain in you
i see that ure scared too.

to you and to you
its not the absolutely
yes i noe

despite the jokes and closest time
somehow somewhere i felt a blow
a friend who is in confusion
yet i dint know.

its lil things keeps me thinking
i hope to you and to you wont go on sinking
as a fren to a fren
just wish to you and to you amend
i wont leave you alone.
a promise,forever will.

completed 12:36am
6th feb 2007
amj
sue.

just be strong orite.
i pledge to sing out loud while this throat hurts.

au revoir

suhaili @ Monday, February 05, 2007 | comment link here

Sunday, February 04, 2007

weekends.penyu drag me and was forced to wake up as early as 7.15am on a Saturday!..according to trusted resources and yea,there's this vacancy job at joo chiat rd.and i was like,"Hotel 81?!"..and according to the direction given..its at Astro hotel..buT then again..wrong infomation and seriously i dunno where it ended us and that makes me walk kilometres that far..about...uhm... 100000000km!. that shud explain how tired am i on a saturday morning! thanx raket.grrrr.and went over to sembawang..have to meet malah for my photoshop software.im so forgetful not to ask her on friday itself.
stoopid me.

head to amk ..thought of buying shoes since my mom give me the money to buy new one..but no size..so to spore shoe center,buzz off!..grrrrrrrr.went back home.raket and Berm slack at my house and..yeap.we strum strum all the way.everythings need a start..

sunday.bik liza and her family came over.i showed paman bat my mp3..and i hope that he would be jealous since he is fanatics bout gadgets.....but he turn out saying..there's better one.chet.regret.haha. bazli had a bogey tooth.haha.and i told him he wud never get his tooth back..and all he did was continure playing computer game,cuz he wudnt be bother by my crap.haha.he is p5 mind you.he got brains.i forgot.lol. and balqis is growing so much much bigger.soo cute.she say bye kakak!!! uwah...after so long..can chill with balqis.ure soo cute darling.ekekekekeke.and yeap bik liza was tired and sick.poor my bibik.hope u get well soon.

i had a dream.
for a moment,it felt so real.
and i wish i wudnt wake up to face wats not
ure just special.

i pledge to understand and not asking.
au revoir

suhaili @ Sunday, February 04, 2007 | comment link here

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