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Sunday, July 31, 2005

hmm..today is sat...shahila n amirah set a plan nak blaja kat airport..end up i have no mood..same goes for raket..so was planning and all..decided..cancelled the plan nak gi airport blaja...becos its far..waste of time..sudah..buat penat aja..so gosok baju n all...get ready to go to hougang point..well tts the place to study conveniently and condusively..reach there bout 12 plus in the evening..den came along raket...actualli today got jemputan..dint want to go for tt..luckily can go out and blaja..lol..escaped*..not escaped la..mls pun nak pergi..nobody can force ...heh..den on the way..nak naik bas..da lah hujan lebat..angin pun kuat..skali ada org pekik ...,"suhaili!!!!"..i was like..ape nie..skali aisha..eheheh..excited see each other..padahal hari2 kat klass nampak muka dia..ahaha..shahila was late..ahaha...was damn hungry..wait for her..nak mkn nya pasal....mkn n all...studied till 8mlm..sure there is interval of lepaking n talking...well we did study la..hmm..nak balik...sudah..nampak khalid dlm bas..bagus tuh...lol..sudahla....balik pulak...nampak kasut2 tetamu...obek saini ngan obek titi dtg..eheheh..den clean up n all..tgk tv..pasal banduan yg di bilik akhir...where kena sentence death..it was so hurting..n touching..haiz...i wished there is no such punishment..even if they r wrong..so?tt is mistake...dunno la...hmm...had a tiring day...exhaustion of mind...besok ..hell...its ok..thanx..tts all i guess....bits n pieces of today.....adious

suhaili @ Sunday, July 31, 2005 | comment link here

Thursday, July 28, 2005

i want to noe wat my dreams for..hmm..today is thursday..heavy flow of subject that is..i went thru it again..tiring,stress..feeling like a real loser..nureen!!u noe y !!..lol...basically failed my test..heh..itulah..taknak blaja lagi..serves me rite..hmm..food and nutrition...ms queck was so noisy..she keeps talking..n mdm sumayah keep laughing..lol..i dunno what i shud do at all..how n all..blank!..ms queck cant even help us..wonder how she get thru teaching in sec schs..urgh..ask mdm sumayah for help..heh....me,jannah n aisha had a great laugh..in fnn class tt is...well,met again!!! a_ _ _z!!!ehehehe..tadi nak balik..saw mdm sumayah in her kereta driving..ask her for a lift..muke mmg tak tau malu..skali she say,"masukla"..den i was like..takpe2 cikgu..its okie..eheheh..was jus pulling her leg la..den skali want to jaywalk..skali..beep!!mr farid!!he saw us..his face was angry..n he pointing finger at us..damn..besok mesti dia annouce..lol..but its oki..i shall face it!...yes...ehehe..balik..mak masakkan mee soto..hee..nice..with begedil n all....tts all i guess..nak tgk tong xin yuan!!!...adious

suhaili @ Thursday, July 28, 2005 | comment link here

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

go away as i walk...
i shall not look anymore..
it seems there's always a stop
between u n me..
i wonder what it is..
ur frens or me..?
if ever there is time im wrong..y dint u tell
i meant nuthing
once i leave it all behind..
its gonna be hell for me..
u noe tt

told u many times..
wonder if ure convince...
well if ure not..
shall stop to everything..
wat u expect me to do..
when tts all i cud do..

wishing looking at u
wud be e painkiller
well
i feel like a "niner"
........................................ive yet to continue these made up words...

bluergh.
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adious

suhaili @ Wednesday, July 27, 2005 | comment link here

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

today is mabel birthday..26july..hepi birthdae ya..thanx for being one idiot fren..ure the best!..ehehe..ur present will be delayed ya..eheheh...im late..late for everything..studies n stuff..will im gonna buck..wait..wait for a dae su..n u'll be late n sori..bluerghh...i jus dunt feel like doing nuthing..hopeless..watever it is..i get it started..i noe..i start..urgh...life is sick..hidup tak pernah akan mudah..hmm...now i feel sleepy..buhowoo..wat is going over me ..tell me..somebody slap me..no ..its ok..da kena sepak pun last few days..not my fault..put away with it..all the bad things goes to me...dtgla lagi...im fine with it..been long dint update..there's sumthing wrong somewhere sue...yikz..rite..im done for now..adious

suhaili @ Tuesday, July 26, 2005 | comment link here

Thursday, July 21, 2005

back few days had racial harmony...hmm..most of us wore he costumes...i mean most of the sec 5 students wanted to wear..since its their last year u see....the nite before me n aisha got up in a phone..jus refusing n complaining not to wear..ahahahha...she knows it...hmm...on the day itself..went out at 6.05am in the morning to go to sch...lol..imagine la..with the outfit..mcm gile lak rasa..meet jannah at the bus stop...mmm...then sit..wanted to go canteen but then paiseh...bluergh.....aisha called ask me to wait for her t bustop..well we did..but then its another bus stop...so we dint wait then..meet at the wooden area....yeap...everything was smooth....taking pictures here and there..havoc that is...bila nak balik hujan...rainy heavy downpouring..lol...the good thing was we took newspaper and walk under the rain...crossing the road running like a mad woman across the street..too great...hmm..board the bus n all..well yeah..sick~..i feel sick...tt racial harmony was on tues..hmmm yest was wed..i feel so free...get to wear uniform...lol...yesterday was the most relaxing day....i bullied naga...jus becos he is shorter than me...but hey he is a good fren..joker like crazy......hmm today...thurs21 atika raket birthday..we;re going bugis for a real meal...then mayb esplanade..i wish there is time...hee...hmm..i miss bugis kopitiam so much...heee...hmmm...looking forward to everything today...well today i saw.....____.....great..made my day..gud enuff...ahahah..stupid things tt is.....nuthing has been better then ever.....adious

suhaili @ Thursday, July 21, 2005 | comment link here

Sunday, July 17, 2005

sunday..sleep..parents quarelling..disturb peaceful sleep of mine..bluergh..y cant dey get over it sia..gaduh gaduh...raket msg me up to go study..dint reply her..was plainly no mood..mak ajak keluar..dint go also..no mood mum..watever it is..i had no mood today....i did today;gosok baju,tali kasut,lipat kain,belajar..bore!..watching anak metropolitan..suria!!..keep repeating the shows..sick sick sick.dar dar..adious

suhaili @ Sunday, July 17, 2005 | comment link here

Friday, July 15, 2005

today is friday..first two period was math..hmm..teacher dint come so mr gary took over..hee..miss him loads..i mean like..da lama dia tak ajar pe..n heard soon he going to go back nie..that's is not rite...not a good choice..bluergh...this is not a crush..get me clear,he is a nice teacher..still remember he got to teach me,mardhiah,eugene,kaplok n all in maths..small group learning...it was fun..hmm..after that had pe lessons..soo nice got caught by mrs danapal..too great..den syafiq got caught..lol...spectacles problem...cermin mata pun takeh..too fanciful she say...i mean like..wat sia.?hmm..got to run but me and nureen walked!!heee...my pe teacher wasnt that encouraging at all but mr gary c was..hehehehe..see?i told you.he is a nice teacher...we complete 2 rounds..den i say cik kamsan..he is working in my sch..been searching for him actually..kind of excited org yg kita kenal keje in my school...i was like..,"cik kamsan!!hie!!"..hehehe..he was driving his motorcycle..heh..hmm...had mt o level listening comp..start at 5pm..like..bluergh..i went back home..had lunch n went to sleep before i went back to school and get freshen up...hmm..but freshen up before i went to sch..it was a cold day actually..the breeze n all....went to the classroom..listen to ria before the real exam is being broadcasts..yup...wasnt nervous...jus plainly tired..its like..5pm?no mood..just for like 25 mins paper?bluergh...went back home...it rains heavily..i share the umbrella with aisha n zahidah..ahahah..its so much fun...had a great laugh...hehehe..den my bus came first...luxury it is...thats all i got to say...adious

suhaili @ Friday, July 15, 2005 | comment link here

Thursday, July 14, 2005

hmm..its packed today..all heavy subjects..but went throught it with laughing all the way...heh..dint want to go at sch at first..but sometimes u just go to push urself..n go with it..hmm..things just talk.cant stop it from anything to happen...had fun in maths class...mrs jane cheng was like asking..where is eugene?is he doing big buisiness or smoking...?n everybody was like covering it up for him..of coz we're his frens..eheh..den i jus sit there n talk from far n tell to mrs jane cheng..that.."we only drink milo"..n we laughed together..lol..no connection..den nureen add up by..."n we also ate the biscuit kwang kwang"..ehehe..the japan biscuit..the relation was that..i was trying to imply..we r kids..we wont smoke,or do those things..ehehe..went to canteen for a break..put my bag aside..den other students put their bag above my bag..orite..that was fine for me..then i wanted to take my bag..so i was asking this person n patted on his back..show him sign lang..ur bag?tt kind..n he wasnt just too happy n talk in chinese..its like..bluergh..forget it..went to fnn class..:"..miss queck is in good mood..out of a sudden..she trip n fall over the laptop that my fren used..gosh..it was a thumped..pain...it was so scary..she couldnt get up..i noe how she feels tho..hmm..jus got the feeling of massaging the leg..i noe its jus pain...i tink the bone crack..eew.pain man..i can feel it..hot day it is..bag was heavy..everything ...went home..had a meal...took a shower n all..freshen up..went to sleep..i miss tong xin yuan.channel 8,7pm show..yikz..get up at about 8.30..yeap..tomorow is my oral mt o level,listening comprehension,on july 15..its fast...3/4 of my journey..yeap..hope nuthing much just that i hope everything goes smoothy n i wont go deaf suddenly..heh..wish all my fren luck ait..its easy....i hope..heh..hmm..i got sumthing to share...

hidup ini tidak punya diri
antara datang atau dia pergi
....cant continue tho..just now it came..but now it dunt..forget it all actually..cont it next time..guess thats about it...uhm..adious

suhaili @ Thursday, July 14, 2005 | comment link here

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

hmm...today's day been not nice and has been nice in the later part..heh..i was going to school..taking the lift down in order to get down?then in the interval of the lift..one auntie came in..i was like..give a smile sue..she's ur neighbour..ehehe..so i did..n she smile..she look at me like ...bluergh..n guess wat she do?she touch my hand n press?wat da...touching my fats that kind..oupss..ehehehe..went to sch nuthing much la..dint want to say..was a start bad day off..den..had class till like 5 in da afternoon..tot it wud be boring..but mrs sundrem teaching of chemistry is jus so fun..ehehehe..den went to watch the soccer girls in my sch battle of greenview sec if im not wrong..lol..they lose..bowen win...great sukces..ahahahaa..woit sue!!be humble.ehehehehe..went home ard 6 plus..then in da bus ..mcm nampak tarmizi..my pri sch fren..tapi tak tegur..mayb wasnt sure if its him..mr fattah reply my email!!woohooo..its great..i hope it would be a turnout...kla..mayb thats about it.adious

suhaili @ Wednesday, July 13, 2005 | comment link here

Sunday, July 10, 2005

bluergh...yikz..today early in morning got to noe paman said nak dtg..panicky all over..becoz need to iron clothes and all....mcm leceh gitu kan..so rush rush..den bik liza call..nak dtg rumah..aiyaa miss the fun n gossips..krekrke..but i got to go out and do my homework..revision..its all packed up in a cupboarD?!hmm..so went to hougang point..wait the bus like wat..15 mins?lama..tu pun nak complain..hee hee..went to hougang point and this raket keep calling me but when i picked up the phone she dint utter a word..wat the..?its like 5 to 6 times raket?!...becos im late..hee..den the last call..i picked up n was like,HELLO?..den she answered...mana kau?n i was like nak samapi la ni..ko ni..den she was like..aku tunggu kau lama mcm buah tak turun..den i was like..yelar2..jumpa kat mac..so when i reach mac..the tables were booked..sum a kid birthday..hehe..hepi birhday eh..walaupun tak kenal..its the thoughts tt count..ehehe...k den meet raket..went to kfc..n there was like no place to sit and finally got to choose the place we hate most..ppl attraction?its like in the middle of kfc?woo...jus sat there..then raket bought the food..den i told her..eh tukar tempat ar..so can enjoy the food peacefully..lol..after that...all the food hassles..i ask raket to change place again..ahaha..it was a big laugh..so do my phy n geo...learn sumthing...n i did my geo..semangat..essay form..n guess wat..after all those long essays ive done..its like more than 6 essay..skali jannah call tadi kate..cikgu suruh buat point form kan?i was like...bluerghhhhhhhhhhhhhh..ape nie?!its not fair..but its ok..i will go thru it!..damn...haiz..im feeling sick..so had a nice day..den talk to my mother..kacau my sis..ahaha..she is angry..cool..my miother n i laugh..woohoo...we just pakat..that is nice mama!!my father left me some epok2 in the oven..ahaha.woo..thankew papa!..did some made up words which ppl call it puisi?i get it all out..it goes rite thru out...btw besok skola..i rahter dunt be late..tired of rushing myself up..its as if all my nerves are straighten up....early morning social studies?imagine that..all those venice topic..urgh..k..i guess...sini aja ya..adious

suhaili @ Sunday, July 10, 2005 | comment link here

Saturday, July 09, 2005

yep...today is saturday..dint went out..want to but dint becoz i had no mood at all..im in this situation where everything follows one mood..that is..watever it is..watch tentang dia..indonesia film..it so nice..so down to earth..compare to ada apa dgn cinta..or eiffel im in love..i tink this tentang dia i can watch loads of time..its jus so dunia..get me?im gonna watch it later again..hee..watch,"the wedding singer"..adam sandler the actor..god..hee...its an old story..watch it many times..but wont get sick either..its nice..hmm... i got to share some things..wait up..i mean hold on..

usah bertanya lagi
sgala apa yang telah terjadi
aku sendiri tidak pasti akan adanya
tidak akan pernah datang satu kata akhir
trus-trusan ia meyambung..
sedar ia semakin jauh..

cuba meluahkan rasa
tapi tidak dpt membahagikan rasa
aku tidak au bagaimana caranya
ingin menunjuk maksudku

diri ibaratkan tanda tanya
persoalan yang tidak pernah temu jawabnya
seperti teka teki penuh soal
aku sadar itu mmg cara kehidupan hidup

aku berdiri di sini
berperang dengan suasana
mencari damai yg tak mungkin dijumpakan
temuila jawabnya sendiri wahai diri
waktu yg suntuk kau mengejar
pasti ada harinya
jawaban kan tiba..
menunggu...

sumtimes words just made up..
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ketika
aku sedang menulis
waktu berdetik jantung berdegup
pabila saa ini berputar
aku rasakan kedamaian
yang tak pasti tenang
ini hanya sementara yg dpt aku gapai
kerna hari esok tak mungkin pasti untukku
meluahkan rasa jauh di sana
tapi dptkah mereka putarkan waktu pada sgala yg terjadi
tak mungkin ia terjadi
kerna yang terjadi sudah direncanakan

setiap insan punya kemahuan sendiri
ada yg mahu mencapai cita cita
ada yg ingin menjadi kaya
ada yg suka saja diam diri

pada smua
pasti ada akhir ceritanya
semua insan mau akhir cerita yg damai
yg dpt mengukir senyuman damai pada waktunya
seorang insan yg mau perginya
apabila raksasa bintang dan bulan jatuh menghancurkan dunia
dia sedang tertidur lena
tanpa dpt merasakan kepedihan tanah
tapi ini hanya sepenggal puisi
yg tak dpt menolong
cuma meluah rasa yg tidak tertlg lagi..
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adious
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suhaili @ Saturday, July 09, 2005 | comment link here

Friday, July 08, 2005

uhmm...been quite some time dint update my blog...dint had the chance to..was tired back past few days..stress uh...pass few days on tues....6july05.i had my mt oral..it was great..of all the sec 5..im the one left doing my oral alone with the pei cai sec students..wonderful..bluergh..when my frens had their oral i had maths lesson..n when my fren had value education subject,i had mt oral?!!lol..it was nuthing actually..im ok..hee..so i was sitting facing the pei cai students..yep..tt was it..cant face them..shy..lol..i mean tak biasa,but then i still tgkla..kalau tak..mcm ape lak kan..so i was the first person of the day...sit outside for 5 mins..hmmm..read the passage..it was about tuisyen..then the conversation part..it was nice..the miracle that only happen is that,i dint utter any english words..heee..miracle tt is..the conversation was..is teacher impt to make ur studies improve..n another that i remember was tt..uhm..if students noe teachers are impt,y they put teachers aside and still be rude to them?..tt kind of stuff..and another teacher was asking bout active sports..sukan lasak..uhm ya..all i noe i answered it right from the heart..lol...

kk..so today its friday..got pe lessons..we had to play badminton!!...lol...so my pe teacher was asking the girls to sit in the front..then the boys to choose us..wahahah....so me,aishah and jannah was at he last end..suddenly the world becomes so shy..lol..partner up with fathee john..chun sim..lol..aahaha..at first it was aisha but then dunno how it goes la..so played..it was fun..aahahha..skali fall.thump!..ahaahah..hell.."its all about sports"..it was overally fun..eheh..the whole day today was fun actually..after sch follow aisha went to compass..she wants to send the hp charger back...then went home n all...thats all about it ya...adious

suhaili @ Friday, July 08, 2005 | comment link here

Sunday, July 03, 2005

hmm..two days down..heh...sat went to hougang green..geez..dint noe how to go there..but then ask shahila for the direction..hidden talent she has..can be a bus driver..eheh...but then i was rather kind of sesat..den called her up..watever it is..i reached hougang green on my own...sukses...big success..ehehe....blaja kat panjang joni kelabu...long john silver i mean..ehehe...nice place..they open the music like nobody bisness..i mean yala..its a fast food restaurant but then be more silent or sumthing like that la..heh...then there was this group of chinese girls studying..they were noisy too like us..keep laughing..den suddenly..when i laugh ..they laugh...keep continue after i laugh...n everybody laugh..woah...i dunno y...then they left eventually with a peaceful voice but then they left a dollar on the table..so i was like shouting..,"eh eh ur one dolar.."they i look at them they look at me..we laugh again..wad da..ya..whatever it is..den today did go to hougang mall..but then they decided go pasir ris beach to study...so went there w/o planning..hmm..amirah with her videocamera..ehehe...we did some shots..holla..nicee...tiring day..lazy to elaborate ..the word is tired...exhausted..mak tlg..ehehe.den get to now shamy's birthday!!..ehehe..anak sedara birthday..i think his age is 5..or 4..mayb..called him up...was asking..wat he wants for hsi birthday and he says he wants a control car..blue colour..ehehe..so cute..shall get him one..i want one too..krekrkekre..den cik ros dtg with her adik beradik n all..geez..i was like open the door and run rite to my room..ahahah...not prepared..she knows me best...den she came to my room..i was like asking when is she cooking again..miss her food loads..sebab rumah dia renovate so she is nt ard..ya..but she be back tomorow..hee...kla..thats all i guess..adious.

suhaili @ Sunday, July 03, 2005 | comment link here

Friday, July 01, 2005

uhm ya...got to catch up in my maths..damn slow..ape eh..i check on the list..bout the mly o level oral..yikz..im the ony person existing alone ...i dunno anybody on that day who takes the mly oral with me..im a loner!!..geez...i shall be independent..ahaahah...luckily im the first person..its jus too great to be true...~~~..had a great day today..not tt great but it was nice tho..ahaha..i usually type this way neway..so nuthing new..dunt read...its a bore..bore of boredom shall i say?yeap...thats the way..ouh man...ala adious

suhaili @ Friday, July 01, 2005 | comment link here

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